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[dewott]

I would never use anxiety/depression as an excuse for my actions... In fact I'm ashamed when these things get the better of me, because I feel I should be more aware and in control of them. And because ultimately, it isn't my conditions, but me, who misunderstands and reacts so poorly

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[pogaf]

No, they aren't an excuse when you try to use them as an excuse, but when things get out of our control because of them, we cannot take the blame. When all is normal it's easy to feel that you should be in control, but when push comes to shove you can only do the best you can. The fact that you try is HUGE and the right people and environments will accept and rejoice in you doing all you can.

This is the problem I so often have when trying to find a therapist. They try to eradicate the problem- get to the roots and make it all better. I'm constantly telling them that, no, I accept that my anxiety and depression are forever a part of my life, but I want to learn to cope with them better in day to day life. I really believe that's the best anyone can do and making an effort speaks volumes.

[dewott]

After about 8 sessions, my therapist determined that my depression was chemical rather than situational. Which is great, but then she basically just concluded that I need meds and that therapy wouldn't help me. So... yeah. I should be looking around more actively maybe? It was just such a disappointing experience.

[denkimouse]

it can be hard to not blame yourself when you act out or say or do stupid stuff during a panic attack or even a smaller fit of anxiety. i know the world will never forgive some of my panic attacks and that makes it very hard for me to reassure myself it is not who i really am either.

learning to cope day to day is really the key, and not coming to hate yourself because of what you do in the worst moments of panic. it's just hard when people get hurt. tho i was raised catholic so maybe that is why i cannot rid myself of this soul crushing guilt? XD sometimes i wonder.

and rachelle: you already know i do not want you to hate yourself at all for anything, so while its good to reflect on your actions and the consequences they've had, so that history is less likely to repeat, remember it's not WHO you are. its hard not to hate oneself sometimes but try to use it to fuel your desire to get better, or it will sit there and eat away at you. believe me.. i know :(

[pheonixxfoxx]

This, 110%!!

Gin took the words out of my mouth. I too have said and done things I regret while suffering from an anxiety or panic attack. Many of these events I wish I could take back, even if the people involved have forgiven me. They eat at me constantly, but I was told that is because I care to much! Unfortunately, we can't change our past. However, we can learn from it and move on. Doing so is what makes us stronger. The anxiety and panic is apart of who we are, we just have to learn how to cope and remember that no one is perfect.