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[dexter_collins]

Ever get the feeling that a choice decision - whether to catch a bus or walk to your destination, will change everything, a la "Sliding Doors"?

Sometimes I don't know how to control it, whether I should stop and stand still, then resume walking, in the hopes that I'll meet him three blocks down the street.

I just don't want to miss out.

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[fred_smith]

I get that. When I was planning which university to go to I would often pick up one of my prospectuses and imagine going there, falling in love, wild experiences, jokes, life-long friends and all that. Then I'd throw it away because it didn't meet some flimsy criterea.

It was fun, to narrow down all the potential futures so much in the space of a few days.

[dexter_collins]

Ah, but what if the decision was as small as 'paper or plastic?' at the supermarket?

Perhaps this girl overhears you saying plastic, and because she's 'eco' she never speaks to you, even though when she saw you at the checkout she thought of asking you out.

Or maybe you get paper, and the girl asks you out, but it's raining outside, you have no raincoat, no car, no umbrella, and the paper bag rips, spilling everything onto the pavement. You miss your bus. And things get wierder from there.

I think there's a song in those words.

Don't get me started over the choice between Pepsi or Coke.

Or the series of decisions they force you to make at Starbucks, each one a different track.

See, OCD: I like to be in control. Not a control freak, I should add. I just need everything to work out like it does in a well-written book.

Bless.

[fred_smith]

You have a good point. Utterly random choices do make massive differences from time to time. Taking the right random link, being in the right place at the right time. Picking up the right books in the library. It all adds up.

People are weird. Life is at once predetermined and at the mercy of random forces. If we're lucky, we may sometimes get to make an actual informed decision occassionally.

[thedarkcrystal]

I do sometimes, but I get it to stop by telling myself that if I am really meant to meet them then I will no matter what happens.

when we can't help but be where we are

[dexter_collins]

That I like.

I love the idea that everything will equalise, so two people get the chance to say hello.

Crystal: thank you for that. I had the most beautiful mental-picture of every fluxuation in life re-adjusting.

Breakers on the shore. Patterns in the sand.

Then again, maybe love re-adjusts to meet the pre-existing criteria. Maybe love can shift, break and reform. A cloud that drops upon us, whether we dance or keep on moving through the mist.

Re: when we can't help but be where we are

[thedarkcrystal]

I think there are certain people that we have to meet, no matter what happens. Others we might miss. But I really don't know anymore about what is meant to be and what isn't. I can't bring myself to think about it too much after how recent events in my life turned out.

Re: when we can't help but be where we are

[dexter_collins]

:) Crystal, I think your sweet and smart and I am wishing you kind thoughts at this very moment. I'm not sure what the recent life events are that have been hard for you, but I hope this cheers you a bit. I love having you on LJ as a friend.

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