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On Monday:

Jul 06, 2005 02:19

I started today with a lie. I told Storm I was running late, but would catch a cab into town from the university, where I’d been belayed. Two of those clauses were true: I was late, and I was intending to catch a cab, having missed the bus because I’d had a lie-in that morning ( Read more... )

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thedarkcrystal July 6 2005, 01:16:00 UTC

You haven't just broken up, have you? I hope I'm not misinterpreting. If so that sucks ass.

And very nice to see an entry from you again! I love you descriptiveness.

dexter_collins July 6 2005, 06:34:17 UTC

Hello Crystal. My favorite poster responded first to my LJ revival :)

I did part from my Gelfling, after 6 months. I’m happier now, if single and erratic.

Thank you for complimenting my writing. That means a great deal to me, as I know you respect words too.

I get to meet Neil Gaiman on the 17th! He’s lecturing at ANU.

thedarkcrystal July 6 2005, 13:14:42 UTC

Of course I did, silly.

Well, if you're happier then that's good. If you ever need to talk or anything let me know though. I'm not on msn much but I can sign on sometime if you'd like.

You're welcome.

And hooray!

dexter_collins July 7 2005, 07:11:02 UTC

Crystal; that's the sweetest :) I'm much better - relieved in fact. My social outings have suffered as we’d shared friends. But I joined a queer friendly Church, and am consolidating friendships while extending my social sphere. Made about four possible new friends in the last week - Isaac, Joseph, Kim, Evan - which should consolidate my network ( ... )

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daffodilsun July 6 2005, 21:28:04 UTC

Nice story. I haven't been in a relationship for 6 years. Really, I'm quite selfish.

dexter_collins July 7 2005, 06:42:22 UTC

Thank you Daffs :)

Actually my ex said it was disturbing how much I treated life like nice stories, and the people in it as characters. The motivations I ascribed to others were too romantic; I saw not only the best in others, but the best of possible fictions.

In this, of course, I agree with her. I know the names of more fictional persons than I do actual people. And there are many fictional characters I would prefer to my daily cast. I fall desperately in love with people in stories, or worse, fall for real people around whom I have constructed these notions; idealizing them through my imagination, making perfect stories for them to fit. Which ends in disappointment when I fall for these fictions, giving myself over to the people within them.

In short, I respect your decision - which isn’t selfish - to stave off romance for six years.

Meanwhile, I’ll read a book while I wait for someone to interrupt my reading.

miss_mickey July 7 2005, 04:55:03 UTC

I literally jumped in surprise when I saw this entry.
I thought you were no longer a LJ person so it freaked me out.
Does this mean that John/Dex is unhappy???
:)

dexter_collins July 7 2005, 06:25:27 UTC

Hello Missy,

Made you jump, huh? LOL

I hadn't written on LJ as my ex-girlfriend was uncomfortable with my being quite so open with all and sundry. I still write, though, possibly 2000-3000 words a week, and get in arguments on Yahoo ;P. Also I hadn't NEEDED to type quite so much while I was in a relationship (attribute it to sublimation) :S

But as for being unhappy? Nope: I'm contemplative. :) I feel more composed than I was towards the end of the relationship. Not casting aspersions on the young lady, but the separation has been for the best (which I hope she agrees).

BTW - the guy in your pic? That's Jonathon Rhys-Meyers :) *love*

I'm getting a handful of friends together for the Neil Gaiman writer's talk at ANU, on the 17th, with drinks to follow at ANU bar. If you and Alex are interested, I'd be thrilled if you both want to come along. :)

John