Fandom Goodbye...(Chapter 3)
Chapter 3
Title: Fandom Goodbye…
Author: me
Pairing:ChinenXOC(you)
Rating: PG-13 (I can make it into an NC depending on the readers choice)
Disclaimer:I own nothing but the plot
Genre: angst, romance ( i don't really know)
Summary: She is his fan but when the news of his new drama came out...she quit
note:sorry for any gramatical and spelling errors...if theres any part you don't understand or have trouble understanding pls feel free to ask. Also all OC charcters in this fic have no names so as you can feel the story more only the artist used are the ones with names...
”…well if you change your mind you know where to find me” she told me…and before I knew it my feet already brought me once again to his dressing room…his…Chinen Yuri’s…I settled myself in one of the empty couches there…leaned…and starred at the ceiling…I’m trying my best to forget him…forget this fandom and just forget about this pain…pain?...what pain?
“creek…” I heard the door open…I sat up straight and looked to see who it was…
“Ah gomen…I thought Chinen is in here” he stopped with the door half opened… I face palmed when I saw who it was…I mean is life really trying to play with me…didn’t I just say I’m trying to forget my stupid fandom…why did Yamada Ryosuke have to show himself? “Is something wrong?” he asked because of the action I did…
“Nothing…please don’t mind me…” I placed my hand down “He hasn’t come yet” I told him…he looked at me as if he had a question at the back of his mind…”Is something wrong?” I threw his question back at him…
“Ah nandemonai”
“You can wait for him in here if you want?” I’m pretty sure he was just waiting for me to invite him in…I mean he wouldn’t want to wait for his friend in the girl dressing room right? …
“A-arigatou” he finally came in and settled in one of the empty seats…I have nothing against Yamada Ryosuke…or even Hay! Say! JUMP as a whole…but it’s just I can’t remain as their fan if all they do is remind me of Chinen Yuri…I can’t listen to their song cause I’m afraid of hearing even just a fragment of “his” voice…I can’t watch their PV and live performance cause “his” there…my heart has a diffrent reaction everytime i see him...I don’t know why but after hearing about this drama and his kiss scene…I just can’t look at him the same way…something changed…a few moments later the door creeked open once again…
“Yama-chan?” it seems he didn’t know that his bandmate will be coming…
“Yo!” Yamada-san stood up from his seat…and approached him…”Ne konoko dare?” he whispered to him…but still I faintly heard it…He looked at me…I looked away…
“She’s our new make-up artist and character stylist…sou dayo ne?” he gave me a smile…that smile that use to make me all giggly inside…but right now I don’t even want to look at it…look at him…
“Ah sumimasen I seem to have forgotten to introduce myself…” I stood up…forced a smile…then gave them my name…funny…I should have done that the first time I came here…but I guess it didn’t really matter to him who I was…he never did ask…well what was I expecting? I’m only here to do his clothes and make-up…make him appear so oh so perfect for all his stupid fangirls…and I can’t believe I use to be like them…stupid…foolish…He could care less who I am and why I’m here, it’s not like I’m his co star …wait…why am I saying all this?...why does it even matter ?...do I actually want him to care? No, no way...why would I even think that…
“Anou… shouldn’t we start already?” I didn’t notice that he was already standing right in front of me…
“Ah right…” I stepped back making the distance between us wider…” I’ll go get your clothes” I walked to the clothes stand...today’s clothes will be chosen by me…I took a few off the stand…and when I decided I handed it to him…and he went to change…
“Kring! Kring!” Yamada-san’s phone started to ring…he immediately took it off his pants pocket and flipped it open…”Moshi-moshi?” he gave me a slight bow…then exited the room…at the same time Chinen Yuri finished changing…
“Where’s Yama-chan?” he looked around looking…
“He went out talking on the phone” I told him…
“souka” he took his seat…getting ready for hair and make-up…I took out my tools …combs…hairsparay…powder etc…he closed his eyes as I started powdering his face…satisfied...i stopped and turned around to get a brush…”ne…about the other day…” he started…I froze for a short while…
“I apologize for leaving just like that…I assure you it won’t happen again Chinen-san”I knew he was still unfinished with his question but i took the initiative to give him an answer...to be honest i was afraid of his question... I couldn’t turn around to face him…I lifted my head that was looking down earlier since I was choosing which brush to use…to my surprise I found his eyes directly looking at mine thru our reflection in the mirror…I felt a sudden chill…his eyes seemed like it was piercing through my soul…reading me….searching for an answer…
“Wh.…”
“And thank you for not telling on me” I cut what he was about to say…I felt than if I didn’t I will be driven to a corner…his eyes are already giving that impression…I turned around faced him again with a smile carved on my lips…I bet he knew I was just doing this to get away…”…well then please close your eyes again..i’ll finish up your make-up so we can proceed with your hair”
“Sou dayo ne…I don’t want to be doing it myself again…”he joked…phew…good thing he decided to let it go…
It was already late when we finished me and senpai…yes I decided to call my mom’s friend’s niece that since we started working together…we chatted as we walked the bright streets of Tokyo…
“Ne…why did you suddenly want to quit on being a fan?” she threw me a question…a question I prefer not to answer…
“Didn’t I already tell you it’s a bother…I’m off to college in a few weeks I can’t afford any distractions” I replied…partially what I said is true…but of course it’s not the whole reason why…
“If you say so…” she sounded unconvinced…maybe she knows more about this than me…maybe she knows the reason why I’m being like this…feeling like this…I hate this feeling…it’s so heavy…I don’t want it anymore...
”Ah I remembered my aunt’s fiancé is coming tonight for a visit..how about we buy a cake to bring home? Come on lets go” she dragged me off to the nearest cake shop…why did she bother to ask if she didn’t even intend to hear my answer? “What should we get?” she placed her index finger on her chin…standing in front of the variety of cakes inside the glass stand…
“How about this one?” I pointed at my favourite flavour…
“I don’t know I think aunt like’s this one better” she pointed at the one beside it…
“ Let’s get than then” I told her...
“Yeah…this one please” she told the lady who was there waiting for our order…
“One slice of strawberry cake and one slice of cheesecake and um….” that voice sounded familiar…and I just hope I was mistaken…but when I turned to see who it was…unfortunately I was right..Kami-sama must really dislike me…”Ah it’s you” he noticed my presence…
“Konbawa Yamada-san” I greeted …
“Yamada-san what are you doing here? Are you with Chinen-san?” senpai just came back from paying for our order…
“Yeah he’s over there” he pointed to the table at corner of the shop…”Eh? Where did he go? He was there a moment ago” Yamada-san scratched his head…apparently Chinen-san is no longer where he last left him…their bags were still there but no sign of him…
“AH! Watch out!” senpai suddenly shrieked…I had no idea I tray filled with hot coffee was about to crash unto my back… it was too late when I figured it out…but jut then…I felt an arm circle around my waist…and then a pull…
“Crack! Crack! Crack!” everything fell on the floor…”Daijobu?” a voice asked “That was close…” I felt his breath against my skin…there I realized it was him who helped me…Chinen Yuri…I blushed at the feel of his breath…a tingling feeling in my chest…at the same time I became conscious of the position we were in…his arm around my waist…holding me close to his warmth…I backed my head away by reflex…he moved his head to face me…unintentionally we were face to face once again…inches apart…feeling each other’s breaths…silence overtook…like the last time… our eyes wouldn’t leave one another’s…what is with this development really? …senpai and Yamada-san, not one of them dared to interrupt…
“Hountou ni gomenasai okyaku-san…I apologize for the clumsiness of our staff” a man suddenly approached us…his voice broke us of our trance…I immediately tried to back away but…but as fast as I tried to back away his hold on my waist instantly tightened…
“Don’t… you’ll step on the broken cup pieces” he once again pulled me closer…his action surprised me…I turned my head and indeed the broken pieces were everywhere…we stayed that way for a few seconds until the floor was free of the broken cup pieces…finally he let go of my waist…
“A-arigatou” I dare not face him after what just happened…never in my life have I been that close to a guy…
“Un…I’m glad your okay” he once again flashed that innocent smile of his…
“Well we better get going Chinen-san…Yamada-san” senpai interlocked our arms while on her other hand she held the cake we just bought…of course it was in a box…I was only able to give a slight bow as a goodbye before senpai pulled my arm and me out of the store...I stayed silent the whole way thru once again lost in my thoughts...questions flooding my mind…what is this tingling feeling in my chest?…but still that feeling that was already there before…that feeling …that weight deep within me…it overthrew that tingling feeling…it overthrew everything…”Urgh!” I scratched my head in annoyance…why do I have to think so much….why am I being like this over someone who wouldn’t even spare me a thought…over someone who could care less about me…and what’s worse I’m ctually getting worked up about him not caring…but wait…he did save me…prevented me from hurting myself…could he actually?
No, that’s impossible…
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Chapter 3 finally out...I was supose to post this yesterday but something came up so I wasn't able to finish it in time...Gomen ne minna...
So how was it minna? I hope I didn't fail you...
Please comment below and tell me what you think...comments make me work hard in writing...
Does anybody know what all those feelings mean?
Again thanks for reading....
Oh and please cast your vote NC or non NC
current votes:
PG-13=3
NC=0
Two more votes for PG-13 and its decided....
Jyaa until the next chapter minna!
Title: Fandom Goodbye…
Author: me
Pairing:ChinenXOC(you)
Rating: PG-13 (I can make it into an NC depending on the readers choice)
Disclaimer:I own nothing but the plot
Genre: angst, romance ( i don't really know)
Summary: She is his fan but when the news of his new drama came out...she quit
note:sorry for any gramatical and spelling errors...if theres any part you don't understand or have trouble understanding pls feel free to ask. Also all OC charcters in this fic have no names so as you can feel the story more only the artist used are the ones with names...
”…well if you change your mind you know where to find me” she told me…and before I knew it my feet already brought me once again to his dressing room…his…Chinen Yuri’s…I settled myself in one of the empty couches there…leaned…and starred at the ceiling…I’m trying my best to forget him…forget this fandom and just forget about this pain…pain?...what pain?
“creek…” I heard the door open…I sat up straight and looked to see who it was…
“Ah gomen…I thought Chinen is in here” he stopped with the door half opened… I face palmed when I saw who it was…I mean is life really trying to play with me…didn’t I just say I’m trying to forget my stupid fandom…why did Yamada Ryosuke have to show himself? “Is something wrong?” he asked because of the action I did…
“Nothing…please don’t mind me…” I placed my hand down “He hasn’t come yet” I told him…he looked at me as if he had a question at the back of his mind…”Is something wrong?” I threw his question back at him…
“Ah nandemonai”
“You can wait for him in here if you want?” I’m pretty sure he was just waiting for me to invite him in…I mean he wouldn’t want to wait for his friend in the girl dressing room right? …
“A-arigatou” he finally came in and settled in one of the empty seats…I have nothing against Yamada Ryosuke…or even Hay! Say! JUMP as a whole…but it’s just I can’t remain as their fan if all they do is remind me of Chinen Yuri…I can’t listen to their song cause I’m afraid of hearing even just a fragment of “his” voice…I can’t watch their PV and live performance cause “his” there…my heart has a diffrent reaction everytime i see him...I don’t know why but after hearing about this drama and his kiss scene…I just can’t look at him the same way…something changed…a few moments later the door creeked open once again…
“Yama-chan?” it seems he didn’t know that his bandmate will be coming…
“Yo!” Yamada-san stood up from his seat…and approached him…”Ne konoko dare?” he whispered to him…but still I faintly heard it…He looked at me…I looked away…
“She’s our new make-up artist and character stylist…sou dayo ne?” he gave me a smile…that smile that use to make me all giggly inside…but right now I don’t even want to look at it…look at him…
“Ah sumimasen I seem to have forgotten to introduce myself…” I stood up…forced a smile…then gave them my name…funny…I should have done that the first time I came here…but I guess it didn’t really matter to him who I was…he never did ask…well what was I expecting? I’m only here to do his clothes and make-up…make him appear so oh so perfect for all his stupid fangirls…and I can’t believe I use to be like them…stupid…foolish…He could care less who I am and why I’m here, it’s not like I’m his co star …wait…why am I saying all this?...why does it even matter ?...do I actually want him to care? No, no way...why would I even think that…
“Anou… shouldn’t we start already?” I didn’t notice that he was already standing right in front of me…
“Ah right…” I stepped back making the distance between us wider…” I’ll go get your clothes” I walked to the clothes stand...today’s clothes will be chosen by me…I took a few off the stand…and when I decided I handed it to him…and he went to change…
“Kring! Kring!” Yamada-san’s phone started to ring…he immediately took it off his pants pocket and flipped it open…”Moshi-moshi?” he gave me a slight bow…then exited the room…at the same time Chinen Yuri finished changing…
“Where’s Yama-chan?” he looked around looking…
“He went out talking on the phone” I told him…
“souka” he took his seat…getting ready for hair and make-up…I took out my tools …combs…hairsparay…powder etc…he closed his eyes as I started powdering his face…satisfied...i stopped and turned around to get a brush…”ne…about the other day…” he started…I froze for a short while…
“I apologize for leaving just like that…I assure you it won’t happen again Chinen-san”I knew he was still unfinished with his question but i took the initiative to give him an answer...to be honest i was afraid of his question... I couldn’t turn around to face him…I lifted my head that was looking down earlier since I was choosing which brush to use…to my surprise I found his eyes directly looking at mine thru our reflection in the mirror…I felt a sudden chill…his eyes seemed like it was piercing through my soul…reading me….searching for an answer…
“Wh.…”
“And thank you for not telling on me” I cut what he was about to say…I felt than if I didn’t I will be driven to a corner…his eyes are already giving that impression…I turned around faced him again with a smile carved on my lips…I bet he knew I was just doing this to get away…”…well then please close your eyes again..i’ll finish up your make-up so we can proceed with your hair”
“Sou dayo ne…I don’t want to be doing it myself again…”he joked…phew…good thing he decided to let it go…
It was already late when we finished me and senpai…yes I decided to call my mom’s friend’s niece that since we started working together…we chatted as we walked the bright streets of Tokyo…
“Ne…why did you suddenly want to quit on being a fan?” she threw me a question…a question I prefer not to answer…
“Didn’t I already tell you it’s a bother…I’m off to college in a few weeks I can’t afford any distractions” I replied…partially what I said is true…but of course it’s not the whole reason why…
“If you say so…” she sounded unconvinced…maybe she knows more about this than me…maybe she knows the reason why I’m being like this…feeling like this…I hate this feeling…it’s so heavy…I don’t want it anymore...
”Ah I remembered my aunt’s fiancé is coming tonight for a visit..how about we buy a cake to bring home? Come on lets go” she dragged me off to the nearest cake shop…why did she bother to ask if she didn’t even intend to hear my answer? “What should we get?” she placed her index finger on her chin…standing in front of the variety of cakes inside the glass stand…
“How about this one?” I pointed at my favourite flavour…
“I don’t know I think aunt like’s this one better” she pointed at the one beside it…
“ Let’s get than then” I told her...
“Yeah…this one please” she told the lady who was there waiting for our order…
“One slice of strawberry cake and one slice of cheesecake and um….” that voice sounded familiar…and I just hope I was mistaken…but when I turned to see who it was…unfortunately I was right..Kami-sama must really dislike me…”Ah it’s you” he noticed my presence…
“Konbawa Yamada-san” I greeted …
“Yamada-san what are you doing here? Are you with Chinen-san?” senpai just came back from paying for our order…
“Yeah he’s over there” he pointed to the table at corner of the shop…”Eh? Where did he go? He was there a moment ago” Yamada-san scratched his head…apparently Chinen-san is no longer where he last left him…their bags were still there but no sign of him…
“AH! Watch out!” senpai suddenly shrieked…I had no idea I tray filled with hot coffee was about to crash unto my back… it was too late when I figured it out…but jut then…I felt an arm circle around my waist…and then a pull…
“Crack! Crack! Crack!” everything fell on the floor…”Daijobu?” a voice asked “That was close…” I felt his breath against my skin…there I realized it was him who helped me…Chinen Yuri…I blushed at the feel of his breath…a tingling feeling in my chest…at the same time I became conscious of the position we were in…his arm around my waist…holding me close to his warmth…I backed my head away by reflex…he moved his head to face me…unintentionally we were face to face once again…inches apart…feeling each other’s breaths…silence overtook…like the last time… our eyes wouldn’t leave one another’s…what is with this development really? …senpai and Yamada-san, not one of them dared to interrupt…
“Hountou ni gomenasai okyaku-san…I apologize for the clumsiness of our staff” a man suddenly approached us…his voice broke us of our trance…I immediately tried to back away but…but as fast as I tried to back away his hold on my waist instantly tightened…
“Don’t… you’ll step on the broken cup pieces” he once again pulled me closer…his action surprised me…I turned my head and indeed the broken pieces were everywhere…we stayed that way for a few seconds until the floor was free of the broken cup pieces…finally he let go of my waist…
“A-arigatou” I dare not face him after what just happened…never in my life have I been that close to a guy…
“Un…I’m glad your okay” he once again flashed that innocent smile of his…
“Well we better get going Chinen-san…Yamada-san” senpai interlocked our arms while on her other hand she held the cake we just bought…of course it was in a box…I was only able to give a slight bow as a goodbye before senpai pulled my arm and me out of the store...I stayed silent the whole way thru once again lost in my thoughts...questions flooding my mind…what is this tingling feeling in my chest?…but still that feeling that was already there before…that feeling …that weight deep within me…it overthrew that tingling feeling…it overthrew everything…”Urgh!” I scratched my head in annoyance…why do I have to think so much….why am I being like this over someone who wouldn’t even spare me a thought…over someone who could care less about me…and what’s worse I’m ctually getting worked up about him not caring…but wait…he did save me…prevented me from hurting myself…could he actually?
No, that’s impossible…
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Chapter 3 finally out...I was supose to post this yesterday but something came up so I wasn't able to finish it in time...Gomen ne minna...
So how was it minna? I hope I didn't fail you...
Please comment below and tell me what you think...comments make me work hard in writing...
Does anybody know what all those feelings mean?
Again thanks for reading....
Oh and please cast your vote NC or non NC
current votes:
PG-13=3
NC=0
Two more votes for PG-13 and its decided....
Jyaa until the next chapter minna!