Pushing away
so hard
Your success seems
to surprise you
It does not
surprise me
Now
who will
you hold
accountable
when you
are
the only person
in the room

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The smell of sweat
and the crunch of leaves
is like
a kick to the stomach
The air is so cold and
it is so hard to breathe
with you on my chest
Someday you will be ok
We will get through this
together
I swear
I can still hear your words
and I know that I am alone

Every day
is like that day
Bits and pieces
I remember
every word
every silence
I can't remember
what
you thought
of me

Your ghosts
are everywhere
and sometimes
I forget
to look.

and we both did. Someday Jennifer...

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Sometimes
my mouth
is such a weapon
I tell
her that I am with someone else
I say I want to be honest
but there is so much
more
She tells me she
needs to throw up

Everybody
is broken
to some degree
Missing pieces
and jagged edges
and
I love her
and in her head
there is a place
where I sit
waiting.

I did not cry
the balance of power shifts
so quickly
in the airport
I can see you shaking
and you tell me you wish
you did not have to travel alone