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I don't know if it's the medication, but I feel better.
I don't know if it's because of you, but things are starting to feel lighter.
I don't know why, but last night I was laying in bed, half asleep, and feeling the most content that I've felt in a long time.
I don't know if God exists, but I still pray to it sometimes.
I don't know why I still pray, but it gives me comfort.
I don't know why, but sometimes I am terrified.
I don't know why I obsess over things, but I do. All the time.
I don't know why music affects my mood so much, but it does. And sometimes that is a very good thing.
I know that I don't want to feel sad anymore.
I know that I don't know how to drop it like it's hot.
I know that I can't keep things bottled inside, and so far, I haven't been. I've been saying what I feel.
I know that I get confused sometimes.
I know that I love Tucker.
I know that I don't like feeling displaced and spread too thin.
I know that I need to have a lot of control in my life, and I don't feel like I have that right now.
I know that I don't want to think too much right now, because I am afriad to slip back into being afraid.
I know that I read into things too much.
I know I need to drink more water. And alcohol.
I know that I want to have a beautiful life with you.