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I've been thinking. Again. :laughs:
Paul is amazing and I fucked it up. Big surprise. I am totally willing and ready to be TEH BEST GIRLFRIEND EVAR...because I love him. But, it's too late. So. What would YOU do in a situation like that?
Teh answer...replace him!!!!!!!1111one But, to my slightly agitated mind, that's impossible. So I will sit and not worry. I do wish he would return my phone calls however. That's a little difficult to grin and bear it. He's my best friend guys, and I honestly just wanted what was best for him...but it's obviously not enough. or maybe it was too much. I didn't want him to catch my crazy. I'm healing now though, so ya'll can be proud of me. I had a slight dip after the whole Brittany thing, but I honestly believe I can not hurt myself anymore. I should really stop talking about him but when you think about someone every 10 minutes of your day, they're pretty much a main topic of concern.
Hannah saw Paul and "two blonde girls holding hands" at the opera thursday. ::laughs:: That didn't go over so well. But I just made myself they were lesbians he was trying to entertain and I felt slightly better.
Christy and I are going out today. We're gonna go catch dinner. Woot. and OMFG I bought shoes.