New week, new goals to reach
Last week was one of the saddest of my life. Loosing Peque was really really depressing for me, I felt so tiny and stupid and I hate to say that it was an accident. Making things to keep her safe ended up killing her faster than any disease. Yeah, it's hard.
The other kitten is apparently doing fine. She's stronger every day and she demands food every hour, of course, this is driving me crazy as I need to work because with last week's stuff (mostly my illness) I'm delayed with some works for EK. Apparently they're trusting in me, so today I will work from now and all night if needed.
I have to say that I'm proud of mom. She was adviced to start a treatment for quitting smoking. It's expensive, but well, I got it for her. I just hope that she won't drop it in the first weeks as she does with all the medicines. I'm proud because she's now determined to quit smoking, after years of begging her and after 11 years after my grandpa's death who passed away thanks to pulmonar emphysema, he tried to convince his daughters and sons to quit smoking. He did 18 years before his death, and still, he suffered a lot. I don't want that for my mom, we saw grandpa suffering everynight and he even had to move to our house because where he lives the cold weather wasn't helping him at all.
Lets see what happens. I trust in her, I just hope she appreciates this gift I gave her, and I pray that this will be helpful for her.
In other stuff, I still don't talk with this friend I had a problem with last week. Not because she doesn't want to solve it, it's because I'm not in the mood to see her. Not being rude or anything, it's because I don't feel very well and the last thing I want to do is say or do something to hurt her. I know myself and that's why I prefer to stay away, thankfuly most of my friends understand this, I talked with one of them yesterday and she even said "yeah, I know you, you rather lock yourself when something bad happens, I completely understand knowing the situations you're in now" Don't ask me why I do this, I just feel it's the right thing to do, like feeling that I loose myself and that I have to be alone to find me again to be able to move on.
After all this rushes pass, I will try to speak to her with more calm. She also deserves this time without her cruelest friend, we'll see what good comes out of this.
And for the nicest news. I have my eyes put into a new camera, a Reflex one. I'm still undecided if I should go for a Canon, Nikon or perhaps sticking to Sony. I wanted a Canon 40D, but I got adviced to go after a Nikon now. I'm not sure yet, but I'm positively sure that I will definetely save for a new camera and get in on December when the promotions start.
About work, well, yes, this will be the year. I'll work on big canvases and hopefuly will finish from 1 to 2 paintings per month. As long as my savings allow. I asked dad for canvases on my birthday, they're not that expensive, Winsor & Newton's big canvases go up to $50 usd aprox. But the surface is good for me. Also, I got like 12 chopping boards yesterday to keep doing smaller paintings wich I'll be photographing and emailing to galleries in US. Bigger paintings will be used to show here in my hometown. I have new inspirations and I want to improve. So this weeks will be focused on anatomy and color selections and of course, showing as many emotions I can portray in every one. I need to make from 25 to 50 paintings to make a good portfolio. So it's going to be a long year.
So, friends, spread the voice, for my birthday instead of giving me anything cute that I will end up storing because my room can't display anything more, you can give me nice surfaces to work with =) Being canvases, nice chopping boards with nice wood to work with. Clean wooden boxes. Or any original surface you can find, can be a wood piece you find in the street, Illustration Board (wich are hard to find nowadays!) Acrylic and Oil paintings (I hope I will get Academy paintings someday, I looove the colors!, but they cost $5 each tube!), set of brushes (there are ones really cheap and includes like 12 brushes. The brand is Mecanorma and they all have red bodies ^^), or maybe those cheaper sketchbooks that are sold for kids, not the ones with spiral, the ones wit.
I'm determined to change my life this year, for good.
On other news, I discovered that I need to go back to my riding classes with urgency. I have a problem in my back, a twisted vertebra on the lower back. When I was 15 years old, a doctor told me this and said that I needed to remain in my weight and do some ab workout to give support to my back. I didn't do it. He also recommended me to keep riding, that this was going to help me to lower the pain. Now that I stopped riding in a regular basis, I'm starting to have problems. I can't stay on my feet for more than 10 minutes, I feel my lower back weak and I have to grab a chair ASAP or I will fall down. So, as soon as I have time, I will go back at least 2 days per week, like when I started. I just need to pay for new boots, because the ones I have were a gift and they're 1/2 number lower than mine, so my toes hurt everytime I use them. I will sell them and use the money to get custom made boots on a city near the capital of my state, they work with leather very well and very cheap. I think I was told that this custom made riding boots could cost me $25 usd aprox. The ones I get, really really bad made, cost me $60 usd. Of course, professional national quality boots cost more than $100 usd. I can't afford them =(
So, I will work the double, I will also search for the phone number of a friend that wanted to speak with me about a work last year. I called him but he was always busy. So, once I find his number, I will stablish contact with him again. He loves horses and has a riding club with the most beautiful horses I've seen here in town. And thankfuly he's always been kind with us, even if he's rich. So I want to work with him if he has any painting project for me.
And well, new goals, hopefuly I will reach them soon. As Bon Jovi said, I'll sleep when I'm dead. Now I need to convice my body of that ^^
Ohhh and I can almost use a beautiful top I got years ago. I tried it on today and almost all the buttons closed!!!! Only the breast-level ones remain being rebels, but this is so good! I love that top!! ¡_¡
Well, I'm off to work. I need to see how I will work on this new commercial comissions and how to make them fit their requests.
Ohhh I want to watch Star Trek AGAIN!!!!! And yeah, if you don't want to give me a surface to work with, you can give me any of this movies as bday gift once they're in DVD: Star Trek, Australia, Maid of Honor (the one with McDreamy), Transformers 2, The Wedding Date (it's in $90 pesos in Mixup!, it's the one with Debra Messing and Dermot Mulroney), yeah, I have a weird collection of comercial romantic comedies ^^.
Have a wonderful week, protect yourself from the hot weather please, here it's completely insulting the awful weather we have... but well, this is where we are supposed to live.
Big hugs
The other kitten is apparently doing fine. She's stronger every day and she demands food every hour, of course, this is driving me crazy as I need to work because with last week's stuff (mostly my illness) I'm delayed with some works for EK. Apparently they're trusting in me, so today I will work from now and all night if needed.
I have to say that I'm proud of mom. She was adviced to start a treatment for quitting smoking. It's expensive, but well, I got it for her. I just hope that she won't drop it in the first weeks as she does with all the medicines. I'm proud because she's now determined to quit smoking, after years of begging her and after 11 years after my grandpa's death who passed away thanks to pulmonar emphysema, he tried to convince his daughters and sons to quit smoking. He did 18 years before his death, and still, he suffered a lot. I don't want that for my mom, we saw grandpa suffering everynight and he even had to move to our house because where he lives the cold weather wasn't helping him at all.
Lets see what happens. I trust in her, I just hope she appreciates this gift I gave her, and I pray that this will be helpful for her.
In other stuff, I still don't talk with this friend I had a problem with last week. Not because she doesn't want to solve it, it's because I'm not in the mood to see her. Not being rude or anything, it's because I don't feel very well and the last thing I want to do is say or do something to hurt her. I know myself and that's why I prefer to stay away, thankfuly most of my friends understand this, I talked with one of them yesterday and she even said "yeah, I know you, you rather lock yourself when something bad happens, I completely understand knowing the situations you're in now" Don't ask me why I do this, I just feel it's the right thing to do, like feeling that I loose myself and that I have to be alone to find me again to be able to move on.
After all this rushes pass, I will try to speak to her with more calm. She also deserves this time without her cruelest friend, we'll see what good comes out of this.
And for the nicest news. I have my eyes put into a new camera, a Reflex one. I'm still undecided if I should go for a Canon, Nikon or perhaps sticking to Sony. I wanted a Canon 40D, but I got adviced to go after a Nikon now. I'm not sure yet, but I'm positively sure that I will definetely save for a new camera and get in on December when the promotions start.
About work, well, yes, this will be the year. I'll work on big canvases and hopefuly will finish from 1 to 2 paintings per month. As long as my savings allow. I asked dad for canvases on my birthday, they're not that expensive, Winsor & Newton's big canvases go up to $50 usd aprox. But the surface is good for me. Also, I got like 12 chopping boards yesterday to keep doing smaller paintings wich I'll be photographing and emailing to galleries in US. Bigger paintings will be used to show here in my hometown. I have new inspirations and I want to improve. So this weeks will be focused on anatomy and color selections and of course, showing as many emotions I can portray in every one. I need to make from 25 to 50 paintings to make a good portfolio. So it's going to be a long year.
So, friends, spread the voice, for my birthday instead of giving me anything cute that I will end up storing because my room can't display anything more, you can give me nice surfaces to work with =) Being canvases, nice chopping boards with nice wood to work with. Clean wooden boxes. Or any original surface you can find, can be a wood piece you find in the street, Illustration Board (wich are hard to find nowadays!) Acrylic and Oil paintings (I hope I will get Academy paintings someday, I looove the colors!, but they cost $5 each tube!), set of brushes (there are ones really cheap and includes like 12 brushes. The brand is Mecanorma and they all have red bodies ^^), or maybe those cheaper sketchbooks that are sold for kids, not the ones with spiral, the ones wit.
I'm determined to change my life this year, for good.
On other news, I discovered that I need to go back to my riding classes with urgency. I have a problem in my back, a twisted vertebra on the lower back. When I was 15 years old, a doctor told me this and said that I needed to remain in my weight and do some ab workout to give support to my back. I didn't do it. He also recommended me to keep riding, that this was going to help me to lower the pain. Now that I stopped riding in a regular basis, I'm starting to have problems. I can't stay on my feet for more than 10 minutes, I feel my lower back weak and I have to grab a chair ASAP or I will fall down. So, as soon as I have time, I will go back at least 2 days per week, like when I started. I just need to pay for new boots, because the ones I have were a gift and they're 1/2 number lower than mine, so my toes hurt everytime I use them. I will sell them and use the money to get custom made boots on a city near the capital of my state, they work with leather very well and very cheap. I think I was told that this custom made riding boots could cost me $25 usd aprox. The ones I get, really really bad made, cost me $60 usd. Of course, professional national quality boots cost more than $100 usd. I can't afford them =(
So, I will work the double, I will also search for the phone number of a friend that wanted to speak with me about a work last year. I called him but he was always busy. So, once I find his number, I will stablish contact with him again. He loves horses and has a riding club with the most beautiful horses I've seen here in town. And thankfuly he's always been kind with us, even if he's rich. So I want to work with him if he has any painting project for me.
And well, new goals, hopefuly I will reach them soon. As Bon Jovi said, I'll sleep when I'm dead. Now I need to convice my body of that ^^
Ohhh and I can almost use a beautiful top I got years ago. I tried it on today and almost all the buttons closed!!!! Only the breast-level ones remain being rebels, but this is so good! I love that top!! ¡_¡
Well, I'm off to work. I need to see how I will work on this new commercial comissions and how to make them fit their requests.
Ohhh I want to watch Star Trek AGAIN!!!!! And yeah, if you don't want to give me a surface to work with, you can give me any of this movies as bday gift once they're in DVD: Star Trek, Australia, Maid of Honor (the one with McDreamy), Transformers 2, The Wedding Date (it's in $90 pesos in Mixup!, it's the one with Debra Messing and Dermot Mulroney), yeah, I have a weird collection of comercial romantic comedies ^^.
Have a wonderful week, protect yourself from the hot weather please, here it's completely insulting the awful weather we have... but well, this is where we are supposed to live.
Big hugs