Before getting into it, those following the development of my Church would do well to note the new development. There is a new virtue, pursuit, and its companion sin, resignation. It is one's duty as a human animal to seek the answers that only humans, those disgusting creatures of language and morality, have any reason or means to pursue. One's ( Read more... )

I was sitting here, and something felt... wrong. And I figured out what it was. Right now, not a single part of my body is in pain. It's bizarre (Christ, I can't use that word anymore*), with my lifestyle as it is- my job, my agility, and my mannerisms- it is very rare to NOT have ANYTHING hurt. Normally something is burning or throbbing or tearing ( Read more... )

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Apparently, Ash JUST figured out I don't like him. As in, within the last few hours. Apparently, insulting him to his face and calling him a catamite four or five times helped him piece it all together. Of course, he didn't know what a catamite is, which was all the better- while he was talking about "a good way- an artistic way- of drawing" Ged's ( Read more... )

I woke up in a room smelling of jasmine, with a cramp in my left shoulder, and the distinct impression that this dark studio apartment was not, in fact, located in Heaven ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm about ready to break. I feel as if I'm slowly losing who I was- the state of mind that is bringing answers is also bringing weakness and further questions. What is the value of good? Not even good as in the moral good, but good as in that which feels good. Why do we choose happiness instead of sadness? Warmth instead of cold? There ( Read more... )

It's weird- I can't watch things like "The Mentalist" anymore, because of my studies in infodynamics. You know, the whole thing about knowing everything, info leak and such. There are two ways the psychic schtic could be done. The first is that this psychic has a better understanding of info leak than most people. He isn't actually reading thoughts ( Read more... )

I think I want to go to the graduation. Because Ged is right (Ged being David, and Nate is jakutei, as in Japanese for "little brother") Ash will probably not be there. He isn't really as accepted by the Fourbies as he could be. And possibly for the same reason I'm still mildly reticent- Christina. God, I can be pathetic. But yes, it seems like a ( Read more... )

I have a quandry, currently. A conundrum, if you will. I do not know if I want to attend the graduation thing at my former high school. On one hand, a couple good friends are going to be there- David and Nate, Ged and jakutei- and it'd be cool to see them again. On the other hand Christina will be there. And possibly Ash. And my self control isn't ( Read more... )

Odd, brief bit of insight- prolonged periods of deep thought, spent in isolation, turn me into a bit of an animal. I feel like a caveman right now. I really want some red meat, I'm not exactly opposed to driving really fast, and I feel a bit... *ahem* playful? Is that a clean enough image? So yeah, if anybody wants the boudoir berserker, just get ( Read more... )