Comments | dickfox: journal entry 4/19/05 2:29pm

dickfox

journal entry 4/19/05 2:29pm

Apr 21, 2005 14:11

I want to be angry. I want to be mad and upset and sad and frustrated and I want to punch someone in the face. I want to break someone's nose...or jaw would be just as good. I want to be miserable. I want to have a good cry. I can fake it. I can cry for an hour, stop and cry again. I've done it, but then I just laugh because I know I wasn't crying ( Read more... )

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cuntfeel April 21 2005, 20:48:43 UTC

I can understand how that would be infuriating...that passiveness. But being emotional isn't that great either...I'm always fucking myself up because of it.

dickfox April 24 2005, 08:26:11 UTC

yep i know being that emotional isn't great, i never said it was...i just enjoy feeling it every once in a while.

AAHHHHH patri_capitan April 22 2005, 23:03:03 UTC

I feel you 100%
Pat

Re: AAHHHHH dickfox April 24 2005, 07:02:03 UTC

it's nice knowing someone's on the same page

insertnickhere April 23 2005, 02:49:09 UTC

once you leave the mind talk completely, you become the ultimate observer you wont want emotions, your only fighting the addiction of being attached to them once you let that go its all up hill from there, word

dickfox April 24 2005, 06:52:11 UTC

i know this, which is why it bothers me that I am attached, because I know I shouldn't be...but I don't think I'm ready to be unattached yet, not completely anyway. blah

insertnickhere May 8 2005, 01:22:02 UTC

I completely understand how you feel, but i learned alot of stuff like that in the life training and how do deal with it. :D