So...
A lot of rambling and me being sad nonsense under here.....
-wishes I could be at Naka-kon more-
I'm really upset about only being able to go Saturday...
Because this was the one chance for me to see my friends and have some fun.
I've been getting really depressed lately as it is, being away and shit I mean, I'm even to the point where if it wouldn't be so douchey of me, I wouldn't go to Disney world with joey anymore, but since he's paying for my fucking trip because his parents are all nice and HURHUR INVITE FRIENDS, I would so be....yeah...sorry I want...I need to go home...But I can't, that'd be messed up.
To bad right?
But Noo, I was telling myself, you got Naka-kon. ...Now look.... Yay. I'm so happy.
Not to mention hey, I love karaoke. What is the second contest I look foreward to most (after cosplay) karaoke contest. And guess what, I finially found a goddamn song.
Oh, did I mention I feel SO SHITTY for having to leave Japanese class early, I promised myself, the one class I can't miss...Is Japanese. I hate school and all their required classes bullshit (hey sounding like center-- geee why didn't I go to the dean's list lunch? Hmm,I WONDER. Damnit.) But I want to take Japanese, I love it, and it's getting hard now, and I'm going it's so hard...but I'm going to get this soon....
Oh and finals begin the days after Naka-kon, guess what final is Monday.
SO now, if my fucking train isn't on time on the goddamn way back, I might miss a study/tutoring sessions HORRAY GUYS MISSING SOME CLASS AND THAT.
Did I mention this would have been avoided with a plane ticket that i've been trying to fucking get since JANUARY or wait...even prior probably. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD BUt i really started pushing for it around jan.
I understand, why it couldn't be done. Fine. I'm okay with that, I'm not mad at my family, I'm dissapointed YET A AGAIN do to procrasticnation something fucked up happens, but for other reasons I'm not going to disccuss, I'm not at ALL upset. <3 and that is sincere, no sarcasm.
What else.....Ohyeah, so, I really really was hoping to try out for iron fanfic, and I still will. But nothing beats walking on that stage, yeah so much for that.
So much for a lot of naka-kon
People who know me, know I don't do any normal shit...I don't get to malls weekly, movies, or anything. I hang out with friends and talk about jrock...and cosplay.
COns, are my big things, even my teachers in highschool knew that.
Naka-kon, was ALWAYS special, I just....GAH. MIssing this, is really .... not right.
I'm aready upset, I don't get the feeling of rushing out of school with erica trying to make it home and dress then go to the con on time. (I miss that so much)
Dangit...>DANGITDANGITDANGIT.
I just. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WAITWAIT
did I forget I feel like shit for
a- having to tell Caleb, his kindess to get me through airport security is not needed after I snapped at him today, saying I'm sorry I don't know my /flight/ info yet, I have to wait tillmom gets paid...
I have to tell everyone, sorry I'm to brook, so I'm not flying anymore.
I feel...so shameful...
I am so mad, I am so upset about this. XD I SHOULDN'T BE.
Everyone is g oing to be all hey it's a con, but I'm sorry, it means a lot more to me
And I know some skanks probably think oh hey mana's in college now, she doesn't care as much about Dir en grey, cosplay, or cons or anything.... You fuckers, you fucking fuckers no. Nonono. Just because I can't afford to go to as many cons as you, doesn't mean I careless.
But now, not being able to go to Naka for the full weekend, it's really going to look like that.
And I've tried so hard to impress them
To last more than a minute in their memory, I want them to say postive things be proud...but now I don't feel like that's the case
And I love them, but hey...Guess i just have to get over it.
.............................................................................
we better take some good pictures Saturday.... T_____________________________T
I can't wait to cosplay with my group
ps- we aren't sleeping Saturday since I need to leave at 7 in the stupid morning.
at least...one bright side...
I get to bring my lotion and angel's heart perfume with me....
And I think I am going to bring my blanket aswell....
well...
I'm done, sorry for ranting, bet many stopped reading.
hahaha, so I walked into someone's room after just crying, they didn't even notice
Guess how great that makes me feel.
I tell you one thing, it makes me miss Erica a lot more.
-wishes I could be at Naka-kon more-
I'm really upset about only being able to go Saturday...
Because this was the one chance for me to see my friends and have some fun.
I've been getting really depressed lately as it is, being away and shit I mean, I'm even to the point where if it wouldn't be so douchey of me, I wouldn't go to Disney world with joey anymore, but since he's paying for my fucking trip because his parents are all nice and HURHUR INVITE FRIENDS, I would so be....yeah...sorry I want...I need to go home...But I can't, that'd be messed up.
To bad right?
But Noo, I was telling myself, you got Naka-kon. ...Now look.... Yay. I'm so happy.
Not to mention hey, I love karaoke. What is the second contest I look foreward to most (after cosplay) karaoke contest. And guess what, I finially found a goddamn song.
Oh, did I mention I feel SO SHITTY for having to leave Japanese class early, I promised myself, the one class I can't miss...Is Japanese. I hate school and all their required classes bullshit (hey sounding like center-- geee why didn't I go to the dean's list lunch? Hmm,I WONDER. Damnit.) But I want to take Japanese, I love it, and it's getting hard now, and I'm going it's so hard...but I'm going to get this soon....
Oh and finals begin the days after Naka-kon, guess what final is Monday.
SO now, if my fucking train isn't on time on the goddamn way back, I might miss a study/tutoring sessions HORRAY GUYS MISSING SOME CLASS AND THAT.
Did I mention this would have been avoided with a plane ticket that i've been trying to fucking get since JANUARY or wait...even prior probably. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD BUt i really started pushing for it around jan.
I understand, why it couldn't be done. Fine. I'm okay with that, I'm not mad at my family, I'm dissapointed YET A AGAIN do to procrasticnation something fucked up happens, but for other reasons I'm not going to disccuss, I'm not at ALL upset. <3 and that is sincere, no sarcasm.
What else.....Ohyeah, so, I really really was hoping to try out for iron fanfic, and I still will. But nothing beats walking on that stage, yeah so much for that.
So much for a lot of naka-kon
People who know me, know I don't do any normal shit...I don't get to malls weekly, movies, or anything. I hang out with friends and talk about jrock...and cosplay.
COns, are my big things, even my teachers in highschool knew that.
Naka-kon, was ALWAYS special, I just....GAH. MIssing this, is really .... not right.
I'm aready upset, I don't get the feeling of rushing out of school with erica trying to make it home and dress then go to the con on time. (I miss that so much)
Dangit...>DANGITDANGITDANGIT.
I just. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WAITWAIT
did I forget I feel like shit for
a- having to tell Caleb, his kindess to get me through airport security is not needed after I snapped at him today, saying I'm sorry I don't know my /flight/ info yet, I have to wait tillmom gets paid...
I have to tell everyone, sorry I'm to brook, so I'm not flying anymore.
I feel...so shameful...
I am so mad, I am so upset about this. XD I SHOULDN'T BE.
Everyone is g oing to be all hey it's a con, but I'm sorry, it means a lot more to me
And I know some skanks probably think oh hey mana's in college now, she doesn't care as much about Dir en grey, cosplay, or cons or anything.... You fuckers, you fucking fuckers no. Nonono. Just because I can't afford to go to as many cons as you, doesn't mean I careless.
But now, not being able to go to Naka for the full weekend, it's really going to look like that.
And I've tried so hard to impress them
To last more than a minute in their memory, I want them to say postive things be proud...but now I don't feel like that's the case
And I love them, but hey...Guess i just have to get over it.
.............................................................................
we better take some good pictures Saturday.... T_____________________________T
I can't wait to cosplay with my group
ps- we aren't sleeping Saturday since I need to leave at 7 in the stupid morning.
at least...one bright side...
I get to bring my lotion and angel's heart perfume with me....
And I think I am going to bring my blanket aswell....
well...
I'm done, sorry for ranting, bet many stopped reading.
hahaha, so I walked into someone's room after just crying, they didn't even notice
Guess how great that makes me feel.
I tell you one thing, it makes me miss Erica a lot more.