Burn, Bleed, Die....
Been going through alot of crap with Jessica. Been sitting here trying to decide whether or not this whole thing is worth hurting myself over. If you want to read about my problems click below....
I used to burn myself. Jessica was the one who got me into it. I did stop. I've had a few slip-ups, but who doesn't? Anyways, after this whole thing with Jessica, I have thought more and more about burning. If I could find my lighter I probably would do it right now. I did find some matches, but matches don't have the same effect. I don't know. People tell me it's not worth it. They tell me I'm too strong for this kind of stuff. It takes alot for me to burn now. I have to be like seriously depressed, like I am right now.... I was sitting in English and in my journal that I carry around with me I kept writing, BURN, BLEED, DIE, and the other day in Doc. Proc. I wrote a suicide note. What is wrong with me? Why am I letting this get to me. Why have I all of a sudden turned into the person I so hard tried not to be?
I used to burn myself. Jessica was the one who got me into it. I did stop. I've had a few slip-ups, but who doesn't? Anyways, after this whole thing with Jessica, I have thought more and more about burning. If I could find my lighter I probably would do it right now. I did find some matches, but matches don't have the same effect. I don't know. People tell me it's not worth it. They tell me I'm too strong for this kind of stuff. It takes alot for me to burn now. I have to be like seriously depressed, like I am right now.... I was sitting in English and in my journal that I carry around with me I kept writing, BURN, BLEED, DIE, and the other day in Doc. Proc. I wrote a suicide note. What is wrong with me? Why am I letting this get to me. Why have I all of a sudden turned into the person I so hard tried not to be?