Have i mentioned that i appreciate the way my kids challenge me to grow? They are honest (WAY honest) and tell me exactly what they think. Sometimes they even yell me what they think. he he. This is fine as long as 1) i hear it in a spirit of "We trust you to know that this doesn't mean we don't love and even respect you". and 2) i know that they ( Read more... )

I want to learn to celebrate the ordinary day. I mean, i think that would be a real gift~ to me, to the world. Because when i think about it, moments i am most nostalgic for were so ordinary.... But looking back with the heart they give my life its color. Ordinary kisses; from my parents, my children, my husband, my friends... ordinary fights ( ( Read more... )

i love my life lately, and i think it's because i'm so busy being a mom~musician. It's the combination... time-consuming, but really great. I wish i could have a job full-time working with these kids; i truly love them all. ~Especially this redhead. SHE'S a little spitfire...he he ( Read more... )

i'm cold. It feels like the temperature that 'alone' should be....but i'd rather be a WARM alone. Not hot, mind you, just warm. These cold hands would welcome a good hand-holding, and warm hugs would be better than....oh i don't know, better than even hot chocolate ( Read more... )

update on my feelings: i don't want my micaela to be my brokendollbaby. i wish when life sucked i could soothe her spirit. sometimes i wish she were little again and i could sing and rock her all better. that's all....and love, always love.

ok computer...(hmm...sounds like a radiohead album) You're my only company right now in this rather cold and quiet house. What's on my mind? Thank you for asking...you're a nice computer. Well, i'm thinking about Caela's Senior Sem. and wondering what i'll have to do to be ready for it. I'm wondering stuff like where will we rehearse, and will ( Read more... )

sso i'm sitting here updating my journal because i know that millions *ding* hundreds *ding* a few *ding* one other person will actually read it. But it's okay because i know she'll be fascinated by *ding* be patient with the ramblings of her favorite lil' mutti. But seriously, i had such a good time with her *ding* you yesterday ( Read more... )

"Nothing's gonna change my world ( Read more... )

had a dream about Micaela lastnight... i was only an observer, but my feelings and emotions were really heightened somehow... it was very poignant. She was walking in a big woods, kind of lost in her own world...i knew this because she would occasionally just start singing, or dancing. But it wasn't happy la-la kind of a mood... it was more so ( Read more... )

Hello journal... Wellllll... life is getting a little interesting these days. Financially things kind of suck, but my social life might really be taking a turn for the better. This coming week i get together with Jimmy. I'm very psyched because we always got on so well and it feels great renewing an old friendship. i'm trying not to get into the ( Read more... )