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[diffuse]

there's a part of me that sees people hardening into a set of ways/beliefs/activities/etc. and feels sad that they've resigned themselves to be people who are so much defined by one particular schema. but then sometimes i wonder- maybe that's just an example of someone finding "their passion" or whatever. maybe it's just that they've found

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[e_206]

sometimes we think of similar things at approximately the same time.
i kind of freaked out with kent. feeling the attachment as too strong even though only days earlier i was speaking to you of how ecstatic i was/am/will be?

and maybe remember how you felt when you were determined about something, maybe such as moving to portland? it might relate, because i do believe you are speaking more of interests, than say relationships... but then, i may never know.

[girlracer]

i think you can have multiple interests and still choose one to specialize in

you can't be an expert in everything and if you want to try to do something you love, you might do well to stick with one thing

[diffuse]

right. i mean that's what i concluded. i think it might have to do with how people conceptualize themselves. like "i am a X." when people define themselves by this or that. it's okay to have one overriding passion. but i don't know if i agree with defining yourself by that thing. there are specific reasons i feel that way, but they're too difficult for me to explain right now. or at least in text.

[anonymous]

Maybe, for some (like myself), that one thing gives them a satisfactory point of reference in which to view all other things. Not that the other things are gone, but just looked at a little differently. Maybe it gives everything context.

And maybe others, like yourself, can be proud and say that they are their own point of reference and that they don't want a filter. But I do. I don't feel like I can be trusted with anything. And maybe that's sad, but it doesn't feel like freedom to me. I need focus. I need unity. And even simplicity. I am not happy left to my own devices. Oneness is not boring for me- it's protection. And maybe protection from myself seems pretty lame to such a free spirit- but I will own that.

oops, whose blog was this??? Sorry for the hijack.