MY LONG OVERDUE RL UPDATE
Wow. Where to begin? Bad news first, or the good? It has been so long since I posted an update to my own journal and such a lot has happened since I went back to work three months ago. I’ll just mention one of the things that have happened below, without going into too much detail. Perhaps I would like to write in more detail about it later on when I know more about it. I just feel very dragged-out and tired right now.
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW
My little boy Sean has been diagnosed with autism. When he started school in September he was still only three years old. We knew that there were some weird or “eccentric” things about him, such as his fascination with certain objects (eggs, for instance). But definite problems at school occurred-his reluctance or inability to speak in front of strangers-his tendency to stare at lights for long periods of time-and other things led his teachers to suggest a referral to a specialist. A visit to a pediatrician specializing in behavioral disorders led to the preliminary diagnosis of mild-to-moderate, or “high-functioning” autism. It has been a shock to us, but also a relief to me. I really spent quite a few miserable days thinking that I was a bad mother and must be the Wicked Witch of the West to have caused my sweet little boy to develop these flaws. So it has not been altogether horrible to have such a diagnosis been made for his problems. At least now Sean can receive some help (like speech therapy) and he can go to a special school for autistic kids. We had pulled him out of the regular one after I went back to work. He is currently in day care. A wonderful lady in her fifties looks after him as well as two little two-year-old boys and her own three-year-old grandson. Sean turned four in November and gets along with the other three boys famously. I am so lucky to have found this wonderful caregiver.
Okay, so now I’ve “talked” about it a little bit I feel better. This is the main reason why I have not been online much recently and why I haven’t written much in the past little while. I have actually written a bit and have come up with a few story ideas but I cannot focus enough to create anything decent. Perhaps that will change as I come to terms with this whole ordeal and what it means for Sean’s future.
Anyway, my next post will be the latest on Ed (my husband) and his boyfriend Stuart. Oh man, do I have a lot to tell. I hope I’ll be able to make it funny. I’ll try to post on Sunday.
I love all my flist. Happy New Year, all of you wonderful people. Please know that I always read your posts even if I haven’t commented on them lately. And I read your stories and stuff and you always make me either laugh or cry but you always make me feel good no matter what.