Comments | digging_a_ditch: I am a dumbass.

digging_a_ditch

I am a dumbass.

Aug 26, 2005 14:36

Yes, I said it. I'm a dumbass. You know why? Because on my placement form (you know...the thing that says what classes you're supposed to take according to your test scores) my social number is WRONG. I flipped the 3rd and 5th numbers because I was tired, it was early, and I smoke way too much pot. This means that when I go to register for classes ( Read more... )

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lizbobiz August 27 2005, 03:55:48 UTC

Dumbass.

And, pot doesn't do anything for cancer patients except make them high enough to not feel their pain. There's nothing at all helpful about pot. In fact, marijuana smoke contains 50 to 70 percent more carcinogenic hydrocarbons than does tobacco smoke. That means it has 50 to 70 percent more cancer causing substances than tobacco. And, people who smoke it have triple the risk of getting lung, heart, and throat cancer than those who smoke tobacco. Plus, look at how much it's changed the person that you are, your relationships with once good friends, and just the way you think in general.

Stop making excuses. If you're serious about quitting, that just do it. Throw out what you have left and move on with your life. You can quit but you don't want to right now? Sounds like addiction to me.

digging_a_ditch August 27 2005, 07:31:12 UTC

Of course it's an addiction. Why do you think I can't just drop it all at once? It has to be done slowly, otherwise I'll go right back to it in a couple months like I did the last couple times I tried to quit.

And for your information, I smoked WAY less this week than I have this whole summer.

digging_a_ditch August 27 2005, 07:35:28 UTC

By the way, the whole pot part of this entry was just sarcasm. And it wasn't pot that changed how I think, it was life in general.

And yes, I may have lost relationships with some good friends, but it wasn't entirely my fault.

lizbobiz August 28 2005, 00:59:14 UTC

I'm just going by the things you said. You brought up pot in this entry and attributed it to your mistake of putting in the wrong social security number and not being able to register for classes. So, in my opinion, my response was invited ( ... )

digging_a_ditch August 28 2005, 04:24:15 UTC

I don't want this to seem like I'm attacking you or anything because I really appreciate the fact that you're the only one who seems to be responding to any of the stuff I write in here anyway. So if any of this seems rude or anything like that, it's not supposed to be ( ... )

lizbobiz August 28 2005, 05:38:05 UTC

It's not so much that you're disappointing me as it is that you're just really upsetting me sometimes. It seems that you have no idea just how far you could go in your life. By doing things like skipping school to go smoke pot, neglecting to pay for your classes so the school drops them all the day after you register, and hardly being in the studio you're so proud of because you're off getting high...it makes it seem like you're taking for granted all the good that has been given to and done for you ( ... )

digging_a_ditch August 28 2005, 06:05:59 UTC

I know it seems like I take it for granted, but I definitely don't. I know I'm not in the studio as much as I should be, but I do spend some good time in there. The problem right now is that Pro Tools is temporarilly down until they get a better working version with the new OS. I can't do anything with the studio until Pro Tools works.

Anyway...that's not even the point. I'm not making excuses. It's the damned truth. I know that because I tried to quit several times before and lasted as long as three months without even thinking about it. I know that's not really that long, but for me it is. I have to take it slow or I'll never be done with it. I know some people have just up and quit that may have even smoked for longer than I have, but they're not me.

And I didn't skip school to go smoke pot. I skipped school because I hated being there.