the urges are back. they haven't been there in so long. i want to cut. i want to cut so much.

they come in waves, telling me that i need the pain, that i want the pain. and i do want it, i want it so so so much. but i've lasted so long, how can i give in now?

i punch myself sometimes and that helps, but it doesn't take it away completely.

i want ( Read more... )

Blooooooody Hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm all lonely, no one has left me any messages. leave me messages people ( Read more... )

oh dear oh dear....

i can see myself getting obsessed again.

you see, this is why i don't let myself near people.

beccuase i get....

OBSESSED!!!!!!!!!!

i do believe that it is time for me to go to bed now. i shall go and dream sweet dreams of lovely people.
nighty night!

men men men

i want a woman. is that greedy?

james called me, he's so nice. we spoke for about an hour. we're hopefully going out to the pub on fri. :D

i'm happy.

he's such a geek like me!

i felt i cudn't just leave only the one entry. it's looks all little and sad by itself, so i decided to write another one ( Read more... )

i just remember i had this thing. tamzy-pops just reminded me. i thought i had written in it before though..... hmm oh well.
but i am feeling lazy so i'm not going to write lots. you're going to have to wait a while before i start pouring my heart out.

oooh but james called me today! i had to tell you that!