I've come to the realization that I now hate mornings worse that I ever did. I was able to eat a little bit of food last night and got about six hours of sleep
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Many years ago, Jen called me sobbing because some jerk had broken her heart. For some unknown reason every cheesy, syrupy platitude came spilling out of my mouth. Needless to add, within minutes we were laughing at the whole situation. It didn't change what had happened, but we could then focus with a somewhat lighter heart. Jennifer was like my first child, she prepared me for Sarah and Laura. What has happened isn't right,or understandable. It is the worst, but I do know a few things I want you to remember. Jennifer loved you. Her love will always be with you. No one on this earth can understand the why, and it the end, it really doesn't matter. I also have to tell you that the loving God is with you now and always. Reach out. You are in my heart and my prayers. I love you. Auntie
You can make it through. It will suck. Every single minute of it will suck. But just take in one morning at a time. At some point there will come a morning where you will actually make it a few minutes before you remember. And at some point after that, you might go a whole hour.
Just let the time pass. Don't try to project ahead. Of course it seems awful when you think about a life without her. And in one way it will be awful, but in another, the passing of time changes things so that the awful becomes bearable, and what you have, instead of the constant awful pain of her loss, are memories of the happiness and joy you shared, and all her beautiful, wonderful, amazing quirks that made her who she was.
It's ok, Robert. What you are feeling is normal. Change is always scary. But your life is not over. And remember, Jennifer would want you to somehow stumble through and go on, just like all the rest of us are doing. Glad you have the kitties there..... they'll help you a lot after the relatives have returned home. You can take back control and maybe change your location later, when you are ready. Life will get better in time.... I've been through this, having a terrible loss. Yes, it's hard. But we do survive, and can be happy again.
Hi Robert. We don't know eachother, and I didn't know her. I was lead here by a friend of hers, Winter, who I am friends with. I lost someone in 01. A lot of what you put here is familiar. It's the sounds of life that aren't in the house that hurt the worst. As silly as it might sound to others, you'll miss hearing the toilet flush while you're in another room. Or dishes being done while you're at the computer. Sounds of life. Odd things like that will hit you like a fist. Jesus, will it hurt
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Many years ago, Jen called me sobbing because some jerk had broken her heart. For some unknown reason every cheesy, syrupy platitude came spilling out of my mouth. Needless to add, within minutes we were laughing at the whole situation. It didn't change what had happened, but we could then focus with a somewhat lighter heart. Jennifer was like my first child, she prepared me for Sarah and Laura. What has happened isn't right,or understandable. It is the worst, but I do know a few things I want you to remember. Jennifer loved you. Her love will always be with you. No one on this earth can understand the why, and it the end, it really doesn't matter. I also have to tell you that the loving God is with you now and always. Reach out. You are in my heart and my prayers. I love you. Auntie
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You can make it through. It will suck. Every single minute of it will suck. But just take in one morning at a time. At some point there will come a morning where you will actually make it a few minutes before you remember. And at some point after that, you might go a whole hour.
Just let the time pass. Don't try to project ahead. Of course it seems awful when you think about a life without her. And in one way it will be awful, but in another, the passing of time changes things so that the awful becomes bearable, and what you have, instead of the constant awful pain of her loss, are memories of the happiness and joy you shared, and all her beautiful, wonderful, amazing quirks that made her who she was.
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Change is always scary.
But your life is not over.
And remember, Jennifer would want you to somehow stumble through and go on, just like all the rest of us are doing.
Glad you have the kitties there..... they'll help you a lot after the relatives have returned home.
You can take back control and maybe change your location later, when you are ready.
Life will get better in time.... I've been through this, having a terrible loss. Yes, it's hard. But we do survive, and can be happy again.
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