One Month Ago...

[diluvian]

It's been one month and not quite 10 hours since Jen passed away. I feel no better than I did when it happened, and maybe a little worse.

Work fails to distract me in any useful way. By early afternoon I have no desire to work, I just feel dead inside. I'm so tired of this routine after just a week.

Sigh.

-Robert

Comments

[azureavian]

and yet, we continue to give you ::hugs:: and what little comfort we can.

[sobelle]

::hugs:: from me too...

any chance of taking day trips?

I have heard that taking in a new setting sometimes helps a little.

[diluvian]

I do appreciate it, I know her loss affects many, many people and so it must be hard to extend comfort to someone you don't really know.

Plantgirl has mentioned some type of travel as well, she took me out to the beach a week or so ago. It did help, but also dredged up some hard memories...

It's just so hard to keep going; using a Ghost in the Shell reference, it's like she was my ghost...talking to me even was she wasn't nearby, whispering to my mind and heart. Now there is just a devastating silence. Part of me feels just like an empty doll with its strings cut.

-Robert

[celli]

*hugs*