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[dineinafire]

[FOR ALL YOUR #URUHA NEEDS from the mistletoe]

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[dineinafire]

…Calm down and repeat yourself. Slower, if you please.

[dineinafire]

I'm listening.

[goldenjailbait]

*this is just driving home the fact that Kurei would never love me in this way. closing his eyes again, tiredly*

I love you, Kurei. Like you love Kurenai.

[dineinafire]

[wait.

...what.

........wait.

..................what]

[goldenjailbait]

I hadn't realized it. Only just. All the things I did in the past. *gestures, a little helplessly*

[dineinafire]

Kaoru, you…

…You're confusing yourself.

[goldenjailbait]

*yes yes, thank you, keep telling me you will never love me that way. manages a smile*

It's probably too much to ask for now, but if you don't mind, I'd still like to stay with you.

[dineinafire]

[frowns]
Listen to me, Kaoru.

You're confusing romantic love with platonic love. You may love me, but you are not in love with me.

[goldenjailbait]

*laughs a little*

I understand, Kurei-nii.

[dineinafire]

You don't. Look at me.

[goldenjailbait]

*does so, murmuring*

You just won't give yourself that, would you?

[dineinafire]

[--that's surprising]

What?

[goldenjailbait]

You won't allow yourself to be loved.

[dineinafire]

[the look that crosses his face can't be described as anything other than stricken, before it falls into a blank mask]

[goldenjailbait]

*man I hate that look.*

I'm not supposed to, right? But I still want to.

[dineinafire]

[his hands tighten on the mask he had nearly dropped, fighting the urge to just slip it back on like he used to]