more convo with dustin i am sooo pissed
xXxIncubusxXx311: hey
THESTINMAN: hi
xXxIncubusxXx311: hows things at home, is your mom mad?
THESTINMAN: no...mom and dad are pissed cuz the school kicked me out for selfdefense
THESTINMAN: lol
xXxIncubusxXx311: oic, did u and Russ make up?
xXxIncubusxXx311: what happened to him?
THESTINMAN: no.....i dont know....my parents are pressing charges tho
xXxIncubusxXx311: on him?
THESTINMAN: ya
xXxIncubusxXx311: just what u need another law suit
xXxIncubusxXx311: did your parents and his talk?
xXxIncubusxXx311: he was so mad at you
THESTINMAN: uh...no
THESTINMAN: ahahha why?
xXxIncubusxXx311: and mike was too
xXxIncubusxXx311: because u were playing kevins guitar and showin off
THESTINMAN: why was he mad at me?
xXxIncubusxXx311: yep....
xXxIncubusxXx311: i thought u guys were gonna fight the teacher
xXxIncubusxXx311: lol
xXxIncubusxXx311: Russ was trippin on LSD the day before he prolly hulucinated u as satan or something
THESTINMAN: so i dont give a shit...the one thing im good at yes im gona show off a little damn!!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: o
THESTINMAN: why the fuck do they care if im good at guitar or not?
xXxIncubusxXx311: they dont, they just didnt think it was appropriate for school and that you looked like you were boasting in yourself
xXxIncubusxXx311: it wasnt appropriate*
xXxIncubusxXx311: i guess that how it goes
xXxIncubusxXx311: and all the seniors were atrring and they were like dude i would smack him upside the forehead with the guitar if it was his own
THESTINMAN: well fuck them i dont give a damn what the say
THESTINMAN: and fuck everyone else i wasnt hurin no body or doing ANYTHING wrong
THESTINMAN: even my mom says its bullshit
xXxIncubusxXx311: you shouldnt have fought back tho...then u wouldnt have OSS
THESTINMAN: what the hell you think im gona stand there and let him disrespect me like that?...huh!
xXxIncubusxXx311: you shouldve just walked away
xXxIncubusxXx311: it wouldve made it better on your half
xXxIncubusxXx311: i cant take sides tho
xXxIncubusxXx311: u r both my friends
THESTINMAN: i dont CARE!!.......... well it sounds like your on his side and all youve done is tell me negative things and pissed me of...i thought you were supposed to be my friend??
xXxIncubusxXx311: i think what he did is wrong also
xXxIncubusxXx311: i think it was a BAD move
xXxIncubusxXx311: did he ask u to stop?
xXxIncubusxXx311: i mean what happend b4 i came back from deca and talking to josh b4 russ handed me the guitar?
THESTINMAN: he never asked
xXxIncubusxXx311: oic
xXxIncubusxXx311: what happened?
THESTINMAN: i dont feel like talkin about it
xXxIncubusxXx311: why?
xXxIncubusxXx311: i mean i really would like to know
xXxIncubusxXx311: your mad at me now?
THESTINMAN: im seriously NOT in the mood.
xXxIncubusxXx311: whatever....i just feel like your making me into the bad guy now
THESTINMAN: i should have never said what i did last week
THESTINMAN: now i regret it
xXxIncubusxXx311: what d u mean?
xXxIncubusxXx311: do
xXxIncubusxXx311: ???
THESTINMAN: what
xXxIncubusxXx311: i said what do u mean?
THESTINMAN: dont worry about it
xXxIncubusxXx311: whatever are you like tryiong to end the friendship just because I think what u and Russ did was stupid? I tried to tell you guys to stop before the teachers came but you wouldnt listen and niether would he. If anything, you shouldnt be mad at me. I don't believe you when u say you love me, I dont because if you did, regardless of the situation, you would still, and you would have no regrets.
xXxIncubusxXx311: especially for "5" years Dustin.
xXxIncubusxXx311: and im sorry I hurt you
xXxIncubusxXx311: i said so
xXxIncubusxXx311: but i do love kevin and you know that
THESTINMAN: WELL FUCK KEVIN!!!!!!!!!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: why would you say something like that to me? who has always been here for you win or lose?
xXxIncubusxXx311: DONT YOU EVER FUCKING SAY THAT
xXxIncubusxXx311: I LOVE HIM!!!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: do you not get it? I -LOVE- HIM!
xXxIncubusxXx311: why do you put me in this position?
xXxIncubusxXx311: and kevin
xXxIncubusxXx311: he never NEVER did ANYTHING TO YOU!
THESTINMAN: I DONT CARE ANYMORE........EVERYTIME I FALL IN LOVE IT GETS DESTROYED
xXxIncubusxXx311: I didnt do this to you
THESTINMAN: IM NOT MAD AT KEVIN I NEVER HAVE BEEN.....I ENVY HIM CUZ HE HAS YOU
xXxIncubusxXx311: i told you over and over, i just dont have those feelings for you, and now I bluntly say it. you are a good friend or u used to be but dont ever say shit like that about him
xXxIncubusxXx311: you shouldnt
xXxIncubusxXx311: you should be happy for me
xXxIncubusxXx311: and him
xXxIncubusxXx311: i am nothing
xXxIncubusxXx311: i dint understand why u and ramsey and chris and everyone like levi and all do this to me AFTER i have a bf
xXxIncubusxXx311: dont*
xXxIncubusxXx311: I AM NOT THE GHIRL EVRERYONE SHOULD LIKE! A AM NOT
THESTINMAN: WELL HOW ABOUT THIS I WONT EVEN COME BACK TO SCHOOL NXT WEDNESDAY ILL GO BACK TO FLORIDA LIKE I PLANNED
THESTINMAN: NO ONE SEEMS TO CARE ANYWAYS
xXxIncubusxXx311: why would i even care to be in a band with you and try to make your dreams and mine work if i didnt care
xXxIncubusxXx311: ?
xXxIncubusxXx311: YOU DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MY FEELINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: i do have them you know?
xXxIncubusxXx311: and so does kevin
xXxIncubusxXx311: is your gonna say shit about him to me say it to his face
xXxIncubusxXx311: you turned on russ now me, who else are you gonna argue with?
xXxIncubusxXx311: why dont you just say you HATE me
THESTINMAN: I LOVE YOU...THE TOTAL OPPOSITE OF HATE
xXxIncubusxXx311: no you dont
THESTINMAN: I NEVER TURNED ON RUSS HE DID
THESTINMAN: YES I DO DAMMIT
THESTINMAN: WHY WOULD I SAYIT IF I DIDNT?
THESTINMAN: ???
THESTINMAN: K FINE IGNORE ME
xXxIncubusxXx311: because u think you do but you dont
xXxIncubusxXx311: im not im typing something else
THESTINMAN: WHAT MAKES YOU SO SURE?
xXxIncubusxXx311: you dont because if you did you wouldnt treat me like shit oike this and say shit about one of the most important ppl in my life i dont wanna hear
THESTINMAN: OK...SORRY I FUCKED UP YOUR DREAMS SARAH GOODBYE AND GOOD LUCK......
xXxIncubusxXx311: whatever
xXxIncubusxXx311: you dont care or youd try
xXxIncubusxXx311: thats how i know u dont love me ....even as your friend
THESTINMAN: NO!!!...IM JUST SICK AND TIRED OF TRYING...I DONT GET ANYWHERE...I CANT STAND YOU AND KEVEIN BEING IN MY OWN ROOM FLIRTING AND BEIN ALL LOVEY I CANT TAKE IT I CARE FOR YOU TO MUCH
xXxIncubusxXx311: then fine ill come get my damn drum set and put it somewhere else
THESTINMAN: JUST GIVE SOME TIME FOR ALL OF US TO THINK
xXxIncubusxXx311: define how you have showed me you care by telling me fuck my boyfriend and all this shit
xXxIncubusxXx311: what r u gonna think about
xXxIncubusxXx311: there is nothing you have totally blown me and kevin off
xXxIncubusxXx311: this is all we have dont u understand?
THESTINMAN: I DONT KNOW! I DONT KNOW SARAH ...IM SO PISSED AND CONFUSED
THESTINMAN: I HAVENT BLOWN YOU OFF...IVE TRIED MY DAMNDEST TO GET YOU TWO OVER HERE!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: and we did and yoiu hated it
THESTINMAN: YES!! BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: no you dont
THESTINMAN: FINE, OK DONT BELIEVE ME IM TIRED OF TRYING
xXxIncubusxXx311: fine
THESTINMAN: Im sorry i disturbed you with what i said last week and in the past 30 min. im just so lonely...and yer perfect for me......im sorry...goodbye sarah
xXxIncubusxXx311: im tired of talking about this and im tired of your "goodbye sarah"
THESTINMAN: why are you so cold hearted towards me?
THESTINMAN: dont we have fun dont we laugh and talk??
xXxIncubusxXx311: i cant love you
xXxIncubusxXx311: yeah i have like other ppl i do that with too
THESTINMAN: may i ask why?
xXxIncubusxXx311: because i thought we were friends
xXxIncubusxXx311: nothing more
THESTINMAN: oh...............................ok
xXxIncubusxXx311: ...
THESTINMAN: no matter what you'll always be in my thoughts
xXxIncubusxXx311: ::sigh::
THESTINMAN: why do you sigh?
xXxIncubusxXx311: because i dunno what to say
xXxIncubusxXx311: and im very frustrated
THESTINMAN: just say ok.....and walk away
xXxIncubusxXx311: and i have no clue what i can say because i cant change the way u think you feel
THESTINMAN: not the way i think i feel ..the way i DO feel
xXxIncubusxXx311: ok
THESTINMAN: bye
xXxIncubusxXx311: bvye
xXxIncubusxXx311: bye*
THESTINMAN signed off at 8:31:08 PM.
THESTINMAN: hi
xXxIncubusxXx311: hows things at home, is your mom mad?
THESTINMAN: no...mom and dad are pissed cuz the school kicked me out for selfdefense
THESTINMAN: lol
xXxIncubusxXx311: oic, did u and Russ make up?
xXxIncubusxXx311: what happened to him?
THESTINMAN: no.....i dont know....my parents are pressing charges tho
xXxIncubusxXx311: on him?
THESTINMAN: ya
xXxIncubusxXx311: just what u need another law suit
xXxIncubusxXx311: did your parents and his talk?
xXxIncubusxXx311: he was so mad at you
THESTINMAN: uh...no
THESTINMAN: ahahha why?
xXxIncubusxXx311: and mike was too
xXxIncubusxXx311: because u were playing kevins guitar and showin off
THESTINMAN: why was he mad at me?
xXxIncubusxXx311: yep....
xXxIncubusxXx311: i thought u guys were gonna fight the teacher
xXxIncubusxXx311: lol
xXxIncubusxXx311: Russ was trippin on LSD the day before he prolly hulucinated u as satan or something
THESTINMAN: so i dont give a shit...the one thing im good at yes im gona show off a little damn!!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: o
THESTINMAN: why the fuck do they care if im good at guitar or not?
xXxIncubusxXx311: they dont, they just didnt think it was appropriate for school and that you looked like you were boasting in yourself
xXxIncubusxXx311: it wasnt appropriate*
xXxIncubusxXx311: i guess that how it goes
xXxIncubusxXx311: and all the seniors were atrring and they were like dude i would smack him upside the forehead with the guitar if it was his own
THESTINMAN: well fuck them i dont give a damn what the say
THESTINMAN: and fuck everyone else i wasnt hurin no body or doing ANYTHING wrong
THESTINMAN: even my mom says its bullshit
xXxIncubusxXx311: you shouldnt have fought back tho...then u wouldnt have OSS
THESTINMAN: what the hell you think im gona stand there and let him disrespect me like that?...huh!
xXxIncubusxXx311: you shouldve just walked away
xXxIncubusxXx311: it wouldve made it better on your half
xXxIncubusxXx311: i cant take sides tho
xXxIncubusxXx311: u r both my friends
THESTINMAN: i dont CARE!!.......... well it sounds like your on his side and all youve done is tell me negative things and pissed me of...i thought you were supposed to be my friend??
xXxIncubusxXx311: i think what he did is wrong also
xXxIncubusxXx311: i think it was a BAD move
xXxIncubusxXx311: did he ask u to stop?
xXxIncubusxXx311: i mean what happend b4 i came back from deca and talking to josh b4 russ handed me the guitar?
THESTINMAN: he never asked
xXxIncubusxXx311: oic
xXxIncubusxXx311: what happened?
THESTINMAN: i dont feel like talkin about it
xXxIncubusxXx311: why?
xXxIncubusxXx311: i mean i really would like to know
xXxIncubusxXx311: your mad at me now?
THESTINMAN: im seriously NOT in the mood.
xXxIncubusxXx311: whatever....i just feel like your making me into the bad guy now
THESTINMAN: i should have never said what i did last week
THESTINMAN: now i regret it
xXxIncubusxXx311: what d u mean?
xXxIncubusxXx311: do
xXxIncubusxXx311: ???
THESTINMAN: what
xXxIncubusxXx311: i said what do u mean?
THESTINMAN: dont worry about it
xXxIncubusxXx311: whatever are you like tryiong to end the friendship just because I think what u and Russ did was stupid? I tried to tell you guys to stop before the teachers came but you wouldnt listen and niether would he. If anything, you shouldnt be mad at me. I don't believe you when u say you love me, I dont because if you did, regardless of the situation, you would still, and you would have no regrets.
xXxIncubusxXx311: especially for "5" years Dustin.
xXxIncubusxXx311: and im sorry I hurt you
xXxIncubusxXx311: i said so
xXxIncubusxXx311: but i do love kevin and you know that
THESTINMAN: WELL FUCK KEVIN!!!!!!!!!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: why would you say something like that to me? who has always been here for you win or lose?
xXxIncubusxXx311: DONT YOU EVER FUCKING SAY THAT
xXxIncubusxXx311: I LOVE HIM!!!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: do you not get it? I -LOVE- HIM!
xXxIncubusxXx311: why do you put me in this position?
xXxIncubusxXx311: and kevin
xXxIncubusxXx311: he never NEVER did ANYTHING TO YOU!
THESTINMAN: I DONT CARE ANYMORE........EVERYTIME I FALL IN LOVE IT GETS DESTROYED
xXxIncubusxXx311: I didnt do this to you
THESTINMAN: IM NOT MAD AT KEVIN I NEVER HAVE BEEN.....I ENVY HIM CUZ HE HAS YOU
xXxIncubusxXx311: i told you over and over, i just dont have those feelings for you, and now I bluntly say it. you are a good friend or u used to be but dont ever say shit like that about him
xXxIncubusxXx311: you shouldnt
xXxIncubusxXx311: you should be happy for me
xXxIncubusxXx311: and him
xXxIncubusxXx311: i am nothing
xXxIncubusxXx311: i dint understand why u and ramsey and chris and everyone like levi and all do this to me AFTER i have a bf
xXxIncubusxXx311: dont*
xXxIncubusxXx311: I AM NOT THE GHIRL EVRERYONE SHOULD LIKE! A AM NOT
THESTINMAN: WELL HOW ABOUT THIS I WONT EVEN COME BACK TO SCHOOL NXT WEDNESDAY ILL GO BACK TO FLORIDA LIKE I PLANNED
THESTINMAN: NO ONE SEEMS TO CARE ANYWAYS
xXxIncubusxXx311: why would i even care to be in a band with you and try to make your dreams and mine work if i didnt care
xXxIncubusxXx311: ?
xXxIncubusxXx311: YOU DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MY FEELINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: i do have them you know?
xXxIncubusxXx311: and so does kevin
xXxIncubusxXx311: is your gonna say shit about him to me say it to his face
xXxIncubusxXx311: you turned on russ now me, who else are you gonna argue with?
xXxIncubusxXx311: why dont you just say you HATE me
THESTINMAN: I LOVE YOU...THE TOTAL OPPOSITE OF HATE
xXxIncubusxXx311: no you dont
THESTINMAN: I NEVER TURNED ON RUSS HE DID
THESTINMAN: YES I DO DAMMIT
THESTINMAN: WHY WOULD I SAYIT IF I DIDNT?
THESTINMAN: ???
THESTINMAN: K FINE IGNORE ME
xXxIncubusxXx311: because u think you do but you dont
xXxIncubusxXx311: im not im typing something else
THESTINMAN: WHAT MAKES YOU SO SURE?
xXxIncubusxXx311: you dont because if you did you wouldnt treat me like shit oike this and say shit about one of the most important ppl in my life i dont wanna hear
THESTINMAN: OK...SORRY I FUCKED UP YOUR DREAMS SARAH GOODBYE AND GOOD LUCK......
xXxIncubusxXx311: whatever
xXxIncubusxXx311: you dont care or youd try
xXxIncubusxXx311: thats how i know u dont love me ....even as your friend
THESTINMAN: NO!!!...IM JUST SICK AND TIRED OF TRYING...I DONT GET ANYWHERE...I CANT STAND YOU AND KEVEIN BEING IN MY OWN ROOM FLIRTING AND BEIN ALL LOVEY I CANT TAKE IT I CARE FOR YOU TO MUCH
xXxIncubusxXx311: then fine ill come get my damn drum set and put it somewhere else
THESTINMAN: JUST GIVE SOME TIME FOR ALL OF US TO THINK
xXxIncubusxXx311: define how you have showed me you care by telling me fuck my boyfriend and all this shit
xXxIncubusxXx311: what r u gonna think about
xXxIncubusxXx311: there is nothing you have totally blown me and kevin off
xXxIncubusxXx311: this is all we have dont u understand?
THESTINMAN: I DONT KNOW! I DONT KNOW SARAH ...IM SO PISSED AND CONFUSED
THESTINMAN: I HAVENT BLOWN YOU OFF...IVE TRIED MY DAMNDEST TO GET YOU TWO OVER HERE!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: and we did and yoiu hated it
THESTINMAN: YES!! BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!!
xXxIncubusxXx311: no you dont
THESTINMAN: FINE, OK DONT BELIEVE ME IM TIRED OF TRYING
xXxIncubusxXx311: fine
THESTINMAN: Im sorry i disturbed you with what i said last week and in the past 30 min. im just so lonely...and yer perfect for me......im sorry...goodbye sarah
xXxIncubusxXx311: im tired of talking about this and im tired of your "goodbye sarah"
THESTINMAN: why are you so cold hearted towards me?
THESTINMAN: dont we have fun dont we laugh and talk??
xXxIncubusxXx311: i cant love you
xXxIncubusxXx311: yeah i have like other ppl i do that with too
THESTINMAN: may i ask why?
xXxIncubusxXx311: because i thought we were friends
xXxIncubusxXx311: nothing more
THESTINMAN: oh...............................ok
xXxIncubusxXx311: ...
THESTINMAN: no matter what you'll always be in my thoughts
xXxIncubusxXx311: ::sigh::
THESTINMAN: why do you sigh?
xXxIncubusxXx311: because i dunno what to say
xXxIncubusxXx311: and im very frustrated
THESTINMAN: just say ok.....and walk away
xXxIncubusxXx311: and i have no clue what i can say because i cant change the way u think you feel
THESTINMAN: not the way i think i feel ..the way i DO feel
xXxIncubusxXx311: ok
THESTINMAN: bye
xXxIncubusxXx311: bvye
xXxIncubusxXx311: bye*
THESTINMAN signed off at 8:31:08 PM.