The first love I'd ever known was somebody on the internet pretending to be a man, later found, she was a 17 year old girl who was just "role-playing" a male character. she denied it, and I feel like an idiot for falling in love with a fictional man when such a stupid silly girl was the one behind the keyboard.
I am so alone, yet I cannot handle not being so. I hate that I'm antisocial and shy. It is and will be my ruin. I live in a complete daydream and am so very lost. I want love to find me, yet I don't want to have to go through relationships where I give so much of myself away, just for them to leave my life, leaving me feeling emotionally raped. I've only had one relationship in my life, and I'm still a virgin. I want someone who instantly clicks and I know is worthwhile of my emotions and heart. There is one person who was hardly in my life who I cannot stop thinking about, due to certain events, and I wonder if I made a mistake, and I would give anything to be able to speak to them again, just for a minute, just to know, that I didn't pass on the chance of having that one person who I could 100% merge with in my life
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i want to tell people what it is, as soon as they meet me
but I have no words in English to tell them. But, again,
English is the only way I know.
this makes me so sad
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pretending to be a man, later found, she was a 17 year old
girl who was just "role-playing" a male character.
she denied it, and I feel like an idiot for falling in love
with a fictional man when such a stupid silly
girl was the one behind the keyboard.
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