knots

[dirtyjeans]

My stomach is so incredibly, painfully tied up in knots. I wish, wish, wish I could get rid of this feeling. I don't know what else to do but to hang in there and fake it when it gets too much, just to at least feel like I'm tolerated

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[louisacer]

I know it probably hasn't felt like it because there's been distance between us lately, but I am here, Sophie. I want to be here for you.

It's hard feeling like you're torn in a few directions because of the circumstances, but I want you to know that you have every right to feel incredibly hurt and incredibly betrayed on several different fronts. I miss you very much and I want to help you and if you want someone to yell/scream at/hit to take your frustrations and sadness out on, please let it be me and I'll come over with a big target on my face for you to smack.

There is love for you.

ps. My mum says hai.

[dirtyjeans]

Thanks Lou

[dirtyjeans]

P.S. Say hi to ya mum for me!

[dirtyjeans]

Oh and I forgot to mention the deceitfulness in the way she made no attempts to avoid me when I got back and I had no idea what was going on ... She was completely and utterly fake to me and every encounter I can remember with her proved that she just didn't give a shit about how I might feel if I found out.

Incase you haven't worked it out I knew something was up from the moment I got back which is why I've been down and confused and keeping to myself.

People have taken offense to my withdrawal but generally people don't care about others problems and because I was so confused I didn't know what to say to anyone, so I just shut myself out for fear of having more to deal with.