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I'm just...I dunno...not ok. I hate this...and I almost hate myself for letting another person do this to me. I find out that he said some immature thing along the lines of "Let's go sledding instead so I can piss off Cristina". Yeah...that's real mature...ass. How exactly did you piss me off? You didn't say a word or come near me the entire time...and I figured you wouldn't and I coulda gave less of a shit. Then you talked to me maturely before you left and said we could be friends...I know we will never be friends again...but what were you doing that was supposed to be pissing me off? Or did you say that to show off for your friends? That's what I thought...
I hate the fact that I can't call him on weekends anymore...not because of the convience of it...but because I liked being around him...even before I liked him. I had a blast at his house on Thanksgiving weekend...and he totally forgave me for doing something I really shouldn't have done in his presence...or at all for that matter.
Maybe I'm really nieve...but I thought he was one of my pretty good friends. I thought he was diffrent from the rest of his friends...maybe I was totally wrong.
I found an old livejournal entry of mine that said something like "I love talking to Derek...he just makes my day better". And he did...
I guess there's not much I can do about it now...If he wants to be friends again...he'll call...but he won't. I'll probally call him in a week or two to go get Christina's visor back...but that's about it...and it sucks...