My biggest problem is lack of self confidence. Is it my fault I just don't want to get my hopes up? Let me hate myself, that's all I ask. Don't try to paint a fake smile on my face. It won't work. Sometimes you have to own up to your own emotions. If you don't, they will eat you alive.

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I wrote a letter to myself, but I couldn't bare to send it.
so I tore it up...and wrote a letter to a friend.

Yesterday I moved to Livermore.
I'm in a town that I actually like.
my computer is here, my bed is here, my clothes are here, my John Mayer dvd is here.
I'm home.

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Wow. Long day yesterday. I saw watched every band I wanted to watch at Warped Tour. The day went perfectly. I finally saw Thrice. I met Mxpx. Fall out boy has good music to shake your ass to. Emery was amazing as usual. I feel sorry for whoever didn't go this year. I got made fun of for dancing during "chick magnet." All I have to say is thank you ( Read more... )

i'm moving to pacifica.
officially.
it makes me smile, even on a rainy foggy day like yesterday.


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I'm not myself anymore. I haven't been for a long time. I don't even know what to feel anymore. I know I hurt, but I don't know why.

Fuck the shit we have to go through just to care about someone. As if caring is a crime. As if having feelings for someone is a bad thing ( Read more... )

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I've come to the conclusion that everyone wants what they can't have. no matter what. people can be happy, people can be content. but it's human nature to want what other's have. To be jealous.

Looks like the tables have turned, congratulationsLast night I wanted to spill my guts to someone but I was held back by something. For the first time in a ( Read more... )