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sidenote: i always feel bad when i meet someone and forget their name about 30 seconds later. i left my door open and met 3 people, but i cannot remember their names. and when they remember my name, i feel worse. blehh. short term memory, get better at remembering things please.
ps. i hate fighting with mike because it pisses me off.
amy the mute (1:22:04 AM): ....... talk to me when you're not feeling sorry for yourself. this was a waste of my time.
irtsylle (1:22:14 AM): hahaha
irtsylle (1:22:26 AM): i've been wasting your time forever then
amy the mute (1:22:44 AM): well you've never been as much of an ass before
irtsylle (1:22:51 AM): yeah
amy the mute (1:23:04 AM): you whine and bitch about how you push everyone away like you can't control it
amy the mute (1:23:11 AM): what the fuck am i supposed to do
irtsylle (1:23:26 AM): nothing, i didn't ask you to do anything
amy the mute (1:23:33 AM): k fine
irtsylle (1:23:36 AM): i bitch and moan because i dont know what to do
amy the mute (1:23:36 AM): it was nice knowing you
amy the mute (1:24:38 AM): talk to me when you get over yourself, otherwise, goodbye
irtsylle (1:25:07 AM): jesus christ
Auto response from amy the mute (1:25:07 AM): sleep
irtsylle (1:25:12 AM): come back
amy the mute (1:25:22 AM): ..............
amy the mute (1:25:32 AM): what
irtsylle (1:25:34 AM): im sorry for being an ass, but im fucking frustrated
irtsylle (1:25:54 AM): and im lost and i dont know how to ask you or anyone for help
amy the mute (1:26:16 AM): to be honest, i don't know how to help, and i swear i am not being mean
irtsylle (1:26:25 AM): i know you're not
irtsylle (1:26:31 AM): and that's what kills me
irtsylle (1:27:02 AM): i dont know what to do, i am overmyself, i just need to know where to go from there
amy the mute (1:27:20 AM): i dunno, live your life day by day
amy the mute (1:27:33 AM): that sounds stupid
irtsylle (1:27:38 AM): i have been
irtsylle (1:27:46 AM): and at the end of every day i feel the same
amy the mute (1:27:54 AM): what do you feel
irtsylle (1:28:03 AM): regret and remorse
irtsylle (1:28:07 AM): guilt
irtsylle (1:28:10 AM): for no reason
amy the mute (1:28:45 AM): for no reason... positive?
irtsylle (1:30:51 AM): fuck it right
irtsylle (1:31:03 AM): im gona go get over it
irtsylle (1:31:16 AM): sorry for wasting your time
amy the mute (1:31:18 AM): ...
amy the mute (1:31:24 AM): okay
irtsylle (1:31:26 AM): see this is the shit im talking about
irtsylle (1:31:29 AM): why am i mad
irtsylle (1:31:33 AM): for no reason
irtsylle (1:31:49 AM): fuckin aye
amy the mute (1:32:06 AM): so every night you're just pissed?
irtsylle (1:32:17 AM): pissed and depressed
irtsylle (1:32:22 AM): every night that i can remember
irtsylle (1:32:37 AM): since 6th grade
irtsylle (1:32:42 AM): or so
irtsylle (1:32:46 AM): 7th i dont know
amy the mute (1:33:44 AM): you've never had a night where you haven't been mad
amy the mute (1:33:45 AM): ?
irtsylle (1:34:28 AM): not that i can remember
amy the mute (1:34:50 AM): this sounds stupid, but have you tried to break the cycle
irtsylle (1:34:57 AM): yeah
irtsylle (1:35:06 AM): it's what my medicine is for
amy the mute (1:35:16 AM): doesn't help at all?
irtsylle (1:35:20 AM): not really
irtsylle (1:35:36 AM): im just gona go
irtsylle (1:35:44 AM): and be pissed at some pizza
amy the mute (1:35:53 AM): uh are you sure
irtsylle (1:35:55 AM): ill talk to you later
amy the mute (1:35:57 AM): okay
amy the mute (1:36:00 AM): sorry for yelling
amy the mute (1:36:03 AM): and being mean
irtsylle (1:36:04 AM): fuck it
irtsylle (1:36:07 AM): i deserved it
irtsylle (1:36:15 AM): i still love you
irtsylle (1:36:22 AM): whatever that is
amy the mute (1:36:34 AM): k
irtsylle (1:36:37 AM): k
irtsylle (1:36:42 AM): friends?
amy the mute (1:36:42 AM): don't doubt yourself so much
amy the mute (1:36:43 AM): yes
amy the mute (1:36:44 AM): freinds
amy the mute (1:36:46 AM): wow
amy the mute (1:36:47 AM): friends
irtsylle (1:36:56 AM): k
irtsylle (1:37:02 AM): do i get a goodbye
irtsylle (1:37:04 AM): or no
amy the mute (1:37:07 AM): yeahhhhhhhhh
irtsylle (1:37:08 AM): k
irtsylle (1:37:11 AM): bye amy
amy the mute (1:37:11 AM): i didn't really mean that
amy the mute (1:37:13 AM): bye mike
amy the mute (1:37:17 AM): goodnight <3
irtsylle (1:37:22 AM): you did, didn't you
amy the mute (1:37:25 AM): no
amy the mute (1:37:26 AM): i was just pissed
irtsylle (1:37:32 AM): k
irtsylle (1:37:34 AM): fair enough
irtsylle (1:37:43 AM): even though you didn't mean it
irtsylle (1:37:51 AM): i still know what you mean
irtsylle (1:37:54 AM): thanks
amy the mute (1:37:58 AM): k love you
irtsylle (1:38:09 AM): yeah
irtsylle (1:38:11 AM): night
irtsylle (1:38:21 AM): wait
amy the mute (1:38:29 AM): yeah
irtsylle (1:38:30 AM): what do you want more than anything in life
amy the mute (1:38:39 AM): um
amy the mute (1:38:43 AM): open ended question?
irtsylle (1:38:47 AM): yeah
amy the mute (1:38:55 AM): damn, i dunno
irtsylle (1:38:58 AM): well
irtsylle (1:39:01 AM): ill start off
irtsylle (1:39:14 AM): i want to wake up next to a girl who i know loves me as much as i love her
irtsylle (1:39:16 AM): that's it
irtsylle (1:39:22 AM): it could be in a cardboard box
irtsylle (1:39:34 AM): or in a car
irtsylle (1:39:42 AM): but it doesn't matter
irtsylle (1:39:57 AM): because this girl and i love eachother
irtsylle (1:40:09 AM): so money or anything else doesn't matter
amy the mute (1:40:18 AM): ooh thats good
amy the mute (1:40:23 AM): i can't top that
irtsylle (1:40:36 AM): but your dream will come true sooner or later
irtsylle (1:40:43 AM): because see
irtsylle (1:40:45 AM): that girl
irtsylle (1:40:52 AM): will sooner or later leave
irtsylle (1:41:01 AM): and whatever you want you'll work hard for
irtsylle (1:41:05 AM): and get it
amy the mute (1:41:35 AM): i don't really have a dream as of now
irtsylle (1:41:41 AM): you will
irtsylle (1:42:03 AM): k night
amy the mute (1:42:08 AM): ok night
irtsylle is away at 1:42:12 AM.
yeah. and it's 1:44 am. i don't know why i do this sometimes.
ps. i hate fighting with mike because it pisses me off.
amy the mute (1:22:04 AM): ....... talk to me when you're not feeling sorry for yourself. this was a waste of my time.
irtsylle (1:22:14 AM): hahaha
irtsylle (1:22:26 AM): i've been wasting your time forever then
amy the mute (1:22:44 AM): well you've never been as much of an ass before
irtsylle (1:22:51 AM): yeah
amy the mute (1:23:04 AM): you whine and bitch about how you push everyone away like you can't control it
amy the mute (1:23:11 AM): what the fuck am i supposed to do
irtsylle (1:23:26 AM): nothing, i didn't ask you to do anything
amy the mute (1:23:33 AM): k fine
irtsylle (1:23:36 AM): i bitch and moan because i dont know what to do
amy the mute (1:23:36 AM): it was nice knowing you
amy the mute (1:24:38 AM): talk to me when you get over yourself, otherwise, goodbye
irtsylle (1:25:07 AM): jesus christ
Auto response from amy the mute (1:25:07 AM): sleep
irtsylle (1:25:12 AM): come back
amy the mute (1:25:22 AM): ..............
amy the mute (1:25:32 AM): what
irtsylle (1:25:34 AM): im sorry for being an ass, but im fucking frustrated
irtsylle (1:25:54 AM): and im lost and i dont know how to ask you or anyone for help
amy the mute (1:26:16 AM): to be honest, i don't know how to help, and i swear i am not being mean
irtsylle (1:26:25 AM): i know you're not
irtsylle (1:26:31 AM): and that's what kills me
irtsylle (1:27:02 AM): i dont know what to do, i am overmyself, i just need to know where to go from there
amy the mute (1:27:20 AM): i dunno, live your life day by day
amy the mute (1:27:33 AM): that sounds stupid
irtsylle (1:27:38 AM): i have been
irtsylle (1:27:46 AM): and at the end of every day i feel the same
amy the mute (1:27:54 AM): what do you feel
irtsylle (1:28:03 AM): regret and remorse
irtsylle (1:28:07 AM): guilt
irtsylle (1:28:10 AM): for no reason
amy the mute (1:28:45 AM): for no reason... positive?
irtsylle (1:30:51 AM): fuck it right
irtsylle (1:31:03 AM): im gona go get over it
irtsylle (1:31:16 AM): sorry for wasting your time
amy the mute (1:31:18 AM): ...
amy the mute (1:31:24 AM): okay
irtsylle (1:31:26 AM): see this is the shit im talking about
irtsylle (1:31:29 AM): why am i mad
irtsylle (1:31:33 AM): for no reason
irtsylle (1:31:49 AM): fuckin aye
amy the mute (1:32:06 AM): so every night you're just pissed?
irtsylle (1:32:17 AM): pissed and depressed
irtsylle (1:32:22 AM): every night that i can remember
irtsylle (1:32:37 AM): since 6th grade
irtsylle (1:32:42 AM): or so
irtsylle (1:32:46 AM): 7th i dont know
amy the mute (1:33:44 AM): you've never had a night where you haven't been mad
amy the mute (1:33:45 AM): ?
irtsylle (1:34:28 AM): not that i can remember
amy the mute (1:34:50 AM): this sounds stupid, but have you tried to break the cycle
irtsylle (1:34:57 AM): yeah
irtsylle (1:35:06 AM): it's what my medicine is for
amy the mute (1:35:16 AM): doesn't help at all?
irtsylle (1:35:20 AM): not really
irtsylle (1:35:36 AM): im just gona go
irtsylle (1:35:44 AM): and be pissed at some pizza
amy the mute (1:35:53 AM): uh are you sure
irtsylle (1:35:55 AM): ill talk to you later
amy the mute (1:35:57 AM): okay
amy the mute (1:36:00 AM): sorry for yelling
amy the mute (1:36:03 AM): and being mean
irtsylle (1:36:04 AM): fuck it
irtsylle (1:36:07 AM): i deserved it
irtsylle (1:36:15 AM): i still love you
irtsylle (1:36:22 AM): whatever that is
amy the mute (1:36:34 AM): k
irtsylle (1:36:37 AM): k
irtsylle (1:36:42 AM): friends?
amy the mute (1:36:42 AM): don't doubt yourself so much
amy the mute (1:36:43 AM): yes
amy the mute (1:36:44 AM): freinds
amy the mute (1:36:46 AM): wow
amy the mute (1:36:47 AM): friends
irtsylle (1:36:56 AM): k
irtsylle (1:37:02 AM): do i get a goodbye
irtsylle (1:37:04 AM): or no
amy the mute (1:37:07 AM): yeahhhhhhhhh
irtsylle (1:37:08 AM): k
irtsylle (1:37:11 AM): bye amy
amy the mute (1:37:11 AM): i didn't really mean that
amy the mute (1:37:13 AM): bye mike
amy the mute (1:37:17 AM): goodnight <3
irtsylle (1:37:22 AM): you did, didn't you
amy the mute (1:37:25 AM): no
amy the mute (1:37:26 AM): i was just pissed
irtsylle (1:37:32 AM): k
irtsylle (1:37:34 AM): fair enough
irtsylle (1:37:43 AM): even though you didn't mean it
irtsylle (1:37:51 AM): i still know what you mean
irtsylle (1:37:54 AM): thanks
amy the mute (1:37:58 AM): k love you
irtsylle (1:38:09 AM): yeah
irtsylle (1:38:11 AM): night
irtsylle (1:38:21 AM): wait
amy the mute (1:38:29 AM): yeah
irtsylle (1:38:30 AM): what do you want more than anything in life
amy the mute (1:38:39 AM): um
amy the mute (1:38:43 AM): open ended question?
irtsylle (1:38:47 AM): yeah
amy the mute (1:38:55 AM): damn, i dunno
irtsylle (1:38:58 AM): well
irtsylle (1:39:01 AM): ill start off
irtsylle (1:39:14 AM): i want to wake up next to a girl who i know loves me as much as i love her
irtsylle (1:39:16 AM): that's it
irtsylle (1:39:22 AM): it could be in a cardboard box
irtsylle (1:39:34 AM): or in a car
irtsylle (1:39:42 AM): but it doesn't matter
irtsylle (1:39:57 AM): because this girl and i love eachother
irtsylle (1:40:09 AM): so money or anything else doesn't matter
amy the mute (1:40:18 AM): ooh thats good
amy the mute (1:40:23 AM): i can't top that
irtsylle (1:40:36 AM): but your dream will come true sooner or later
irtsylle (1:40:43 AM): because see
irtsylle (1:40:45 AM): that girl
irtsylle (1:40:52 AM): will sooner or later leave
irtsylle (1:41:01 AM): and whatever you want you'll work hard for
irtsylle (1:41:05 AM): and get it
amy the mute (1:41:35 AM): i don't really have a dream as of now
irtsylle (1:41:41 AM): you will
irtsylle (1:42:03 AM): k night
amy the mute (1:42:08 AM): ok night
irtsylle is away at 1:42:12 AM.
yeah. and it's 1:44 am. i don't know why i do this sometimes.