log of suffering

[collarpops]

Who: collarpops and isolatedpiece
Where: On the building tops of Discedo.
When: The night of Thursday the 29th.
Rating: let's go with PG-13 for likely suicide themes because of 1. the current event and 2. Ange and rooftops.
Summary: In which being discedo is suffering Jack and Ange hang out on rooftops and event sads strike.
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[isolatedpiece]

[ She didn't expect anyone else to show up at all, really. Whereas back home her bodyguards would probably have found her up here to drag her back to somewhere which would be more 'safe' for her - the thought was almost laughable - here there was nobody to seek her out, nobody to find her. It was why she could stand here, on top of this building, as if it was nothing special

[isolatedpiece]

As long as it's weird enough for them it works, I guess.

[ Not like the things she's been through.. well, she's inclined to agree she's a pretty special case with everything that happened to her, from the death of her entire family in one day to the learning magic and becoming a witch thing to even being torn apart to minced meat for her older brother's sake.. But with personified countries and vampires all over the place where, who's she to say her case is weird in a special way? ]

Either way, they don't plan on letting us go anytime soon, judging from how both of us were sent home before only to be pulled back in again later. This place is refusing to let go of us, no matter what.

[collarpops]

We must be that weird, huh? [ He is weird. He's still weird, he's realizing, with all this stuff going on.

Does he want to be "normal"? He's doesn't even think something like that exists, when even the people who have never come to this city can be so different from each other. ]

I wish they could bring some of my friends over here, at least. They're probably weird enough. [ He'd love to see Zimmy. And Gamma, too, to some extent. And he never gets tired of talking with Annie. ]

[isolatedpiece]

Would you want your friends to be stuck in a place like this?

[ It's not as much scolding as it is pointing out that fact to him. After all, she'd love to see her family again, at any price - but this place is dangerous. Although she would probably be selfish enough to still wish for them to be here, and she knows it. ]

[collarpops]

[ Well, that hit him like a brick in the face. But he should have expected it; that's really a selfish thing to say, isn't it? Even if he does want to talk to them again. ]

...Of course not. I guess I just want to talk to them again, really. Even if it's only been a couple weeks.

[isolatedpiece]

You'll get to talk to them when you go back home. [ some tiny bitter part of her, fueled by the atmosphere, almost wants to say that he should feel lucky he'll at least get that much when he goes home - she'll just be alone again, trapped by those witches. ]

If we'll ever really go home, that is.

[collarpops]

I hope so. [ But he's losing faith at that- this mood, and to some extent this conversation. But, at least he's talking with someone about it. Even if that won't make him feel that much better. ]

...Do you want to go back for anybody?

[isolatedpiece]

I want to see my family again.

[ at least that much sounds genuine; it's pretty easy to tell that it's what she really wants. but when she continues, her tone is resigned, almost defeated, her usual resignation strengthened by the mood. ]

But.. that's impossible. So I guess, in the end I only want to go back for myself.

[collarpops]

That's still a reason. It's better than just nothing. [ Though, just having a reason won't do anything. They're stuck in this place whether they like it or not. ]

Maybe if this place wasn't a big dump, it'd be kind of cool being here. But it still wouldn't be where we came from, so it still wouldn't be right.

[isolatedpiece]

Besides, we have better things to do back home than doing nothing around here. [ at least, she does, pretty clearly. ]

These scientists don't even care about that. We could have been in the middle of saving the world and they still wouldn't let us go back.

[collarpops]

It's weird, 'cos...when I went back, it was from right when I left. So I still ended up being able to do what I wanted to do. [ it's kind of hard to think with these thoughts clouding up his head, but he's trying ] It was like nothing with this place ever happened until I got back.

[isolatedpiece]

Maybe in the end, if we ever do go home, we'll forget all about this place.

[ but what memories of this place does she have? Bern-chan, the various strange happenings here, being with her family for a little while, the things she learned from Rika, a few people - Jack being one of them - who she has been friendly with.. normally she would say she doesn't care about losing that, but right now with the oppressing mood even that seems heavy. ]

[collarpops]

That'd be pretty hard to do, though. I don't think any of us have been to a place anything like this before.

[ ...Well, he has. Ruined cities with monsters. But that's all a blur now, and he's not even sure how real it was. But this is definitely real. At least he hopes it's real. ]

...I don't know if it's worth remembering, though.

[isolatedpiece]

Would you want to remember, if you were given the chance to decide that yourself before being sent home?

[ She glances at him out of the corner of her eye - she's thinking about it herself too, really, while she listens to him. ]

[collarpops]

...I might. I mean, this place is miserable. But I don't want to forget so much of my life. It wouldn't be...right to just have all that taken away, would it?

[isolatedpiece]

If we're returned to right where we left off back in our world.. We wouldn't even notice if it went missing, right? We would just go on the way we were supposed to go on in our world without this place's interference.

[ ... ] Still, you're right, it's a weird idea to forget about such a long period of your life, even if you won't realise.