[EXO] the dark is too hard to beat

[feixing]

the dark is too hard to beat | exo | baekhyun/zitao | nc-17 | 9600~ | warnings: here (contains spoilers)
baekhyun doesn't believe in eternity or meant to be, but he believes in inevitability.
inspired by this edit by tb-cont

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[sendandreceive]

i am really not coherent enough to leave this the comment it deserves so i am going to spot this and come back when i can breathe properly

[sendandreceive]

ok first of all this was just stunning. like absolutely stunning ok i was NOT EXPECTING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS

i love how you kept his ability to see the light sort of small, not over-done but it's there. and that reflects in the way he's learned to deal with it, to just brush it off as a part of life and to try not to let it get to him

and your way of doing the work relationship turned into something more is just ugh delicious, it can be so difficult to get that right but you did it perfectly imo.

"Do you want to be my boyfriend, Baekhyun? Boyfriend Baekhyun has a nice ring to it."
SQUEALS AND FLAILS

Baekhyun's fucking soul hitches in his throat and he can't breathe. Zitao is still lounging against the bed and smiling lazily at him, patting the side of bed that is empty. Zitao is going to die - is gesturing for him to come to him.
MY SOUL HURTS OK, MY SOUL. jfc this hurt so much, i was all drowning in everything baektao and life was wonderful and then GOD NO. i know i shouldve seen it coming but i didnt and it hurt ;__;

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[feixing]

aaaahhhh this comment made me smile ngl ;; i don't deserve something like this
i am glad the r/s worked for you! ngl i was kinda worried about it and toyed with the idea of expanding it further but then i looked at the word count and sighed :< ♥

i am sorry aaahhhhh i just needed to write this it just kept nagging at me ;; holds you please breathe.

and favourite omg you are too nice ;~~~~~~~~~~;
tysm for reading! ♥

[pollutedlungs]

NO NO NO
NO

N O
YOU DID NOT JUST WRITE THIS NO I REFUSE TO EVEN BELIEVE THIS OK I AM AT SCHOOL RIGHT NOW AND I REALLY WANTED TO JUST SOB BECAUSE THE ENDING YOU CRUEL CRUEL WOMAN MY CHEST IT ACHES
Seriously though I was just thinking "ohh~ baektao" all optimistic and shit and I guess I completely ignored the angst warning???? or didn't think it would be like this??? because my heart hurts and I'm sitting here in the middle of class trying not to sob like an idiot oh my god.
The imagery at the funeral was very vivid for me, probably because I went to one very recently and I remember being completely fine, just numb for days before and then there's just something that snaps you in half and you just sob.
BUT OH MY GOD I CANNOT EVEN BELIEVE YOU WITH THAT ENDING WERE YOU TRYING TO OBLITERATE THE HEARTS OF YOUR READERS IN SOME MUSHROOM CLOUD OF WAILING AGONY R U CRAZY I literally yelled "NO." in public ok

[feixing]

no don't sob i am so sorry ;_________________; ♥
oh my god i am so sorry for the funeral scene i probably should have warned for it too ;; i hope you are okay please ♥

cackles at you i am sorry about the ending it just came to me and i couldn't let it go aaahhhh
and yes that's interesting; perfection really isn't something that's... meant to be. ita.

you make a lot of sense! thank you so much for reading ♥

[effictio]

I am an emotional mess hELP
but how could you make Tao die
and how can you warn for implied suicide
Tao how could you do this

okay sorry I get emotionally invested in fics like this
you are amazing and now I am sad
this is not a coherent comment
fishbowl

[feixing]

the implied suicide wasn't for tao don't worry! it was for this one-liner
He had seen something today that he didn't want to, a person with dimmed light buying a coil of rope at the convenience store.
i just wanted to cover my bases ;;

don't be sad i am sorry!!!
thank you ♥

[effictio]

no being sad is a good thing it's what you sign on for as a fangirl haha

And I was reading so fast that I completely missed the reference. /facepalm
But going back I love the image.

You should feel so accomplished because this is amazing and you are amazing and sad is good.

[sandra_hall]

and now, I weep

[feixing]

don't weep :<

thank you for reading! ♥

[waddup_krease]

This is the first fanfic to make me cry. It was beautiful. Keep writing. I can't even compliment you and say how much I loved it through my tears. THANK YOU

[feixing]

ah cries that is oddly flattering??? i am sorry it did tho ;; ♥

tysm for reading! ♥