for the second time, i've had my heart broken by a boy who is in love with someone else.
i can catch them, but i can't hang on to 'em.

however, unlike the last boy who broke my heart, he was a gentleman.

Michael had mentioned to me a while ago that he was in love with someone else, but assured me that he was dedicated to me. I wasn't really worried ( Read more... )

sometimes i sit and my room and listen to edith paif and watch american tv shows dubbed in french. i sit and watch the shows and pretend i'm french and how i hate all of these motherfucking americans.

i think i want to move. either to europe, or to texas. i can't decide.

when we meet, i will only ask you three questions:

who are you?
where do you live?
what are you doing?

i have an OBGYN appointment monday morning. i've never done this before, and therefore, i have no idea how that works. i'm going to get put on birth control and check up on the vagina and make sure it's good to go. i am thankful that my mother is being understanding and not refusing to put me on birth control. i guess you can get birth control for ( Read more... )

i just need encouragement about this whole college ordeal. i'm so conflicted about everything i'm doing.

last night was so wonderful and today is the most beautiful day i've seen for weeks.

dear sunnie,

i love you and will miss you very much. i know we've both had a rollercoaster of friendship, but last night and this morning, there is nothing that stands between me and you. i want to clear the air and say that yes, i have been a little wary of real ( Read more... )

i'm very upset. i want to do my school work, and not just do it. i want to do it well, very well. i am torn between being the best student i can possibly be and the best friend/girlfriend i could possibly be. i don't think i can do both very, very well simultaneously. i think this feeling of being totally fucked also comes from living so far away ( Read more... )

AKA i deleted my myspace.

hello new school year! imma a gonna start you off right!

i don't want children. and sometimes i think that marriage is a joke played on men. i really like feminist ideas, but christ! these poor assholes get suckered into marriage by desperate woman who feel like they have to fufill some sort of age old idea that they must have children. these fucking woman always assume that they are going to get married ( Read more... )

I BEGIN THE ENDINGS!

RHINOPLASTY FOR EVERYONE!