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Good bye 2009!
☼ Thank you to all my lovely friends who stood by me throughout the year. I love you guys, and no matter how much I bitch at you, please remember: ...I just want a little of your attention. I'm a lonely little girl. Please continue to bear with my immaturity. Thank you for everything!
☼ This was the year that I learned how to change and how to try to become mature for the sake of the people around me. I learned a lot of new things: songs, dances, people, enemies lol, languages... and even feelings. I think I've grown up....no, not in height. Well, you get the point.
☼ The accomplishment I made this year was... going back to college. I understand now how much graduating means to me. And to my parents too. It hurts whenever I see my classmates ahead of me. All of them are graduating this 2010. ...I still need 2 more years. ;w; I..guess. I don't regret stopping though. I was able to study the Japanese language for 9 months while away from college. I made new friends. It was an adventure for me. Right now though, I need to focus on another important thing: my future.
☼ I've been a really bad girl this year too lol. I've made a lot of enemies. But frankly, I don't regret that. I just think they weren't worthy of being my friends. I don't fight with people for no reason at all, you know. If you do something wrong then of course, I'd have to do something about it, right? I won't just let you get away with it. I don't like being a hypocrite like those people. If you have something to tell me, then say it now.
☼ Sachi, sorry for everything. For calling you a liar. For shunning you away. For saying bad things towards you. I was so jealous that time. I felt like you didn't need me anymore. I've always thought I wasn't any good so, I couldn't compete with them. I was mad at myself... I guess I just blamed it on you guys. I guess, I just wanted to be someone special to somebody for once. But when it felt like I was just someone in the background, I couldn't help but get upset. I'm really sorry. I'm thankful I've met you. I was able to change myself and try to understand things from a different point of view. Thank you for being such a wonderful friend and for being a sister to me.
☼ Momo, thank you for always being there for me. I'm sorry that I always rant on you. I'm sorry if I suddenly bitched on you before. But you know I just wanted us to talk about what's wrong, right? Sorry if I'm not very "malambing". I hope you won't take it the wrong way. I've enjoyed being in the fandom with you. I learn a lot from you too. I hope we could still keep that promise even after a lot of years pass by. I won't abandon you like Ube Girl did. Even if I seem distant at times, always remember you'll always be special and I love love love you forever.
☼ Kat, sorry if I wasn't able to comfort you during that time when you needed us. I wanted to talk to you but I was scared that you didn't need me. I wanted to be there for you but I couldn't be. I've been telling myself maybe if I could just switch places with him, just so you wouldn't be sad, then I will. I'm sorry if I'm not very open to you. I just. thought that maybe I'd just be bothering you, in a way. I love you so much and I hope nothing changes between us. I hope we'll be a lot closer this year.
☼ Miya, I'm sorry if I was a little cold to you earlier. It's just that. well, please don't be too mean on Yuugo? Err, that is... because. I KIND OF see someone in him. And I just. get a bit affected about it. ^^;;; It's nothing really serious but, yeah. Anyway, I'm happy that we've been friends and that I was abble to be in Buono! with you and Momo~ Let's keep working hard this year too, okay? XD I want to hear more of your voice! ...Also, don't worry too much about him. He'll be back soon.
☼ ....F-For those who didn't get an individual message, I'm sorry. It's just that, I owe these people a lot. I've done bad things towards them and I never really got the chance to say sorry. I know I may have offended someone in the past so, I'm sorry. I hope nothing changes between us and we could still remain as friends. I love you all and I am truly grateful to have met you guys. I hope to spend another wonderful year with everyone!
☼ If you have anything you want to tell me, I guess this is the right time to do so? 8Da
HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!
...Oh, right. To my dorky prince. ....get some rest, I become worried when I see you randomly falling asleep like that. Good luck on your studies. Let's both do our best, okay? Never give up! (/≧▽≦)/