Ventilation.
I am pissy and grumpy and miserable and am going to vent now.
My immune system thinks trees are poisonous and is trying to save me from junipers by causing a nonstop torrent of snot and sneezes and making my face and sinuses an itching, crawling, swollen, runny mass. I have not breathed through my nose in 24 hours. Treatments I have tried without the slightest success include:
- zyrtec (has worked better for me than claritin in the past)
- afrin nose spray
- benedryl last night
- zicam nose swabs
- nettles
- pataday eye drops
Just took claritin in the hopes that it can somehow do something the other antihistamines can't. I'm also doing weekly injections, but they take years. I will have clawed my face off long before then.
I'm afraid to try the neti pot because I'm phobic about drowning or things that feel like or hint at drowning. A doctor friend had offered me prednisone, a hard-core immune suppressant. I declined at the time, but now I regret it. Suppress my immune system, please!
I was a bad girl and had a hot buttered rum on Monday night. It contained probably a tablespoon, maybe two tops, of dairy, which is exacerbating things. Last night I went to the store very hungry and wanted comfort food: mac and cheese. I checked the vegetarian cheese section, desperate for even vaguely cheese-representative products. It offered lactose-free options that still contain milk proteins, which are what I'm allergic to. Fuckers.
Also I found out that the brand of soy milk I'd found and been so happy with is ceasing production. It's VitaSoy lite plain. West Soy is glutinous and nauseating. Will try Pearl, although it doesn't seem to have a low-cal version. Fuckers.
Today at work I was out of soy milk. The cafeteria only had chocolate soy milk. I'm allergic to chocolate, but I got it anyway since possible anxiety seemed preferable to continued immune system freakout if I got skim milk. Fuckers.
All this makes it much harder to eat lighter and exercise more and drop five pounds so I can fit back into my custom leather pants, which were slightly too snug last week in slightly the wrong way. My ass used to be made of ice cream and cheese; now apparently it is made of almonds and second bowls of cereal.
I bit my tongue really hard yesterday. I had forgotten that it was my day to tutor my friend's niece in English, so I had to run home to do that. I like doing it, but since I couldn't breathe through my nose and my tongue got more and more swollen during three hours of solid talking, I was extra-miserable at the end.
My allergy doc isn't in until 1pm. I left a message and am hoping to get a call and either go in to see him or get a prescription phoned in for something, anything. Yes, I am a lazy, whiny American. and yes, I want Western medicine to instantly purvey a silver bullet to make me all better right fucking now.
I look miserable, I sound miserable, I am fucking miserable.
I used to be so healthy and energetic. Now this is my life. IT FUCKING SUCKS. I resent whoever designed this system and wish to register a fucking complaint.
My immune system thinks trees are poisonous and is trying to save me from junipers by causing a nonstop torrent of snot and sneezes and making my face and sinuses an itching, crawling, swollen, runny mass. I have not breathed through my nose in 24 hours. Treatments I have tried without the slightest success include:
- zyrtec (has worked better for me than claritin in the past)
- afrin nose spray
- benedryl last night
- zicam nose swabs
- nettles
- pataday eye drops
Just took claritin in the hopes that it can somehow do something the other antihistamines can't. I'm also doing weekly injections, but they take years. I will have clawed my face off long before then.
I'm afraid to try the neti pot because I'm phobic about drowning or things that feel like or hint at drowning. A doctor friend had offered me prednisone, a hard-core immune suppressant. I declined at the time, but now I regret it. Suppress my immune system, please!
I was a bad girl and had a hot buttered rum on Monday night. It contained probably a tablespoon, maybe two tops, of dairy, which is exacerbating things. Last night I went to the store very hungry and wanted comfort food: mac and cheese. I checked the vegetarian cheese section, desperate for even vaguely cheese-representative products. It offered lactose-free options that still contain milk proteins, which are what I'm allergic to. Fuckers.
Also I found out that the brand of soy milk I'd found and been so happy with is ceasing production. It's VitaSoy lite plain. West Soy is glutinous and nauseating. Will try Pearl, although it doesn't seem to have a low-cal version. Fuckers.
Today at work I was out of soy milk. The cafeteria only had chocolate soy milk. I'm allergic to chocolate, but I got it anyway since possible anxiety seemed preferable to continued immune system freakout if I got skim milk. Fuckers.
All this makes it much harder to eat lighter and exercise more and drop five pounds so I can fit back into my custom leather pants, which were slightly too snug last week in slightly the wrong way. My ass used to be made of ice cream and cheese; now apparently it is made of almonds and second bowls of cereal.
I bit my tongue really hard yesterday. I had forgotten that it was my day to tutor my friend's niece in English, so I had to run home to do that. I like doing it, but since I couldn't breathe through my nose and my tongue got more and more swollen during three hours of solid talking, I was extra-miserable at the end.
My allergy doc isn't in until 1pm. I left a message and am hoping to get a call and either go in to see him or get a prescription phoned in for something, anything. Yes, I am a lazy, whiny American. and yes, I want Western medicine to instantly purvey a silver bullet to make me all better right fucking now.
I look miserable, I sound miserable, I am fucking miserable.
I used to be so healthy and energetic. Now this is my life. IT FUCKING SUCKS. I resent whoever designed this system and wish to register a fucking complaint.