Comments | dishwater: ballard and the mall parking lot

dishwater

ballard and the mall parking lot

May 18, 2005 10:24

( sometimes I cut to save the butchering of your friends pages )

Comments 4

weloveyoucorky June 3 2005, 16:06:43 UTC

you took me off your friends list? i am sorry if i did something to offend you kaelyn. anyway- hope you got that card i sent a week or so ago. i wasnt sure i had the address right so hopefully i did.

dishwater June 3 2005, 17:57:12 UTC

oh, lol. you said your weren't going to use lj anymore. I thought you were going to delete your journal. I just hate those damn crossed out names. Anyway, I'm glad you're still around. I'll totally add you back, that way you can see my friends-only entries!

Thanks so much for the card. I was going to post a picture of it, but I've been pretty damn busy. Love the grapes and the whimsy. So good. Loves.

weloveyoucorky June 4 2005, 04:04:29 UTC

well what i meant was i am not going to be using lj for awhile as an outlet to the more personal side of me. i thought about deleting it, but i like to hear what everyone else is up too. i just dont think i am going to talk about anything that personal to me anymore. just the light happy thoughts. i just want you to know that your comment did hurt... i understand where you are coming from but when you told me it was bullshit. i felt somewhat betrayed. because that was how i felt. it wasn't bullshit. i felt like i was slipping into depression and that is how it felt to me. i never said no one else feels that way or anything- i just wrote honestly how i felt at that moment. i hated myself at that moment and thats why i wrote all those things i did... but it sort of hurt that you called it out as bullshit when it was honestly me saying how i felt. just thought i should share that (otherwise i would bottle it up). anyway glad you got the card. i started going to that lady this week. and working out. as much as i hate work, working out and ( ... )

dishwater June 4 2005, 05:45:16 UTC

I think I was over-sensitive about the subject because I had heard you talk about it before. And it felt like your emotions weren't going anywhere. It was stagnant. And I blamed you for that. Which was wrong. I wanted to call you on it. I wanted to be totally honest, because I sense that you were being honest. I was just expressing something that was unjustified. I still stand by the sentiment behind that comment. I was trying to stir you up. I get upset when people make themselves out to be the victim and stay there because they feel comfortable being the opressed. I didn't beleive you were doing this to an extreme, but I wanted to empower you. Tough love or something ( ... )