all for one person [jongyu, g]
all for one person
jongyu, g
fluff, romance
I can feel your heart beat through my shirt.
This was all I wanted, all I want.
It's all I want. »
Jinki sits and wonders whether he should tell Jonghyun how he feels. Then wonders how exactly he could explain the feelings he’s overcome with when Jonghyun’s in his presence or when he smiles or tells him a stupid joke. Like that one he’d heard Changsun tell in the middle of Music Theory class that had the entire classroom burst into laughter. Jinki decided he’d laugh anyways because it was probably one of those jokes you had to be there to get because it didn’t really make sense. But he laughed anyways just to see the younger man’s eyes alight with happiness.
A smile twitches across his mouth as he recalls the eager way Jonghyun looks for acceptance and appraisal. Ever since they first met, he's always looked like a puppy waiting for a 'Good boy~' or a treat.
He picks at the label of the vitamin water he’s drinking and feels defeated. He’s been over and over all of this before. He’s decided over and over again that it’s never a good idea to leave his heart on the table for Jonghyun to do with as he so pleases. But he knows Jonghyun wouldn’t be so malicious as to just throw it away or ignore it completely Because no matter how selfish or ridiculous he may be on the outside, he’s actually probably the nicest person he’ll ever call his friend.
But what if he doesn’t want to just call him his friend anymore? What if he wants to hold hand and tell him he’s beautiful and that he thinks his voice is beyond amazing? Maybe kiss him every chance he gets?
Sighing heavy and deep, he checks his watch and realizes Jonghyun’s late like usual and that he’ll probably blame Kibum or Dongwoon, or both of them for that matter.
“I’m sorry!” he yells dramatically, skidding in through the door. The librarian reprimands him for being loud and he bows apologetically around in a circle and yells out another apology so everyone else who isn‘t already staring, stares.
Jinki tries not to laugh as she warns him that if he doesn’t tone it down, she’ll kick him out. He bows once again and barely whispers another apology. She looks ready to throw a book at his head as he turns on his heels and grins as his eyes land on him.
“Sorry.” He pulls out the chair next to him and flops down, “Wow, I’ve been saying that a lot today.” he chuckles, throwing his stuff all over the table and starts digging through his bag.
“It’s alright.”
“Hey! Do you think you could give my song a listen?” he grins winningly while pushing the large earphones at him.
He’s been working on it for weeks and not once shown Jinki the lyrics or let him hear the musical composition. He was a little hurt, but he thought that maybe it was his way of trying to make the song by himself, without the various opinions of other people that could otherwise muddy it up.
"I guess." he sighs, while Jonghyun shoots him a look.
Jinki takes them and places them over his ears as the other man navigates his way through the thousands of songs on there and finally hits play. He smiles at Jonghyun as he places the Ipod onto the table and nervously rubs his hands together, not looking at him. He takes a deep breath and closes his eyes.
It’s slow and steady and something he can probably listen to while staring out into nothingness as night turns to day. When he’s in the rut of continuous self analysis he gets into every once in awhile. There's a techno-y feel to it. But he can still here the instruments underneath it..The heavy beat of the bass drum.
I'm running out of ways to make you see,
I want you to stay here beside me.
I won't be okay and I won't pretend I am,
So just tell me today and take my hand.
Please take my hand,
Please take my hand.
Jinki wonders if Jonghyun is purposely trying to break his heart or make him feel like he’s about to explode from the sheer amount of possibilities that are running rampant through his head at the speed of light. All the little things he thought only he thought about and all the little moments only he thought he remembered. All the emotions he thought only he was feeling.
He’s too scared to open his eyes as his heart races, races so fast he can practically hear his heartbeat in the shell of his ear overpower the music.
Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back.
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind,
Only love.
He hears the music fade as the earphones are removed and he barely registers even that before the feel of lips are pressed to his and I love you I love you I love you is whispered to them. He opens his eyes and can visualize the look on his face as Jonghyun smiles at him, mere inches from his face.
“Smitten. I wanted to add that in there somewhere, but Hweesung-hyung thought it didn’t fit the song very well.”
“Oh.” he glances down at his textbook and finds the lyrics sitting there in full.
“Minho thought it was cheesy. I did too…but, y’know.”
Jinki smiles up at him and tries not to smile as hard as he is because the apples of his cheeks are hurting. Hurting so good.
Just say yes, cause I’m aching and I know you are too.
For the touch of your warm skin,
As I breathe you in.
“So,” the younger man clears his throat and hiding a smile behind his fist, “Opinions?”
“I-” he swallows the lump in his throat that feels like it has been permanently lodged in there since the beginning of college. “Yeah. I love you.”
His face is warm and tingling and he can’t help the smile still plastered stupidly across his face. The other man’s mouth drops open for a split second before he clears his throat again. His cheeks are a pretty pink and Jinki want’s to brush his fingers along them just to see how warm they are.
“I love you too, loser.” he whispers back, placing another kiss to the corner of his mouth.
just in case: Changsun = Joon (MBLAQ) & Hweesung = Wheesung
idk, i just needed to write something cute.
leave me some lovin'~
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