So it sux when you lie to yourself. I recently realized that's what i've been doing, lying to myself and of course to others. I mean let's face it, I'm in love and I'm in a relationship and GOD it's SCARY!!! Do you think it's to soon to use the word LOVE? It's been four years, i've been lying to myself for all of them "it's not love, it's to soon, ( Read more... )

Just read my last post and remembered something else. He was engagedto this girl named Crystal. She cheated, he stayed with her, she cheated, he stayed, she cheated he dumped her, blah blah. And he says he's over her but i'm not so sure. When we first started hanging out he told me he was still in love with her, and then yesterday he told me the ( Read more... )

Dunno where this is going, but i know where it's been and it scares the shit out of me. Been hanging out with jon a lot and starting to get those old feelings again. I've noticed that he's definatly (sp?) grown up a lot and changed for the better. There are several problems though. Last time i fell in love with this kid and got kicked in the teeth ( Read more... )

So i'm laughing after reading my last entry about jon peek. it's ironic cause i did have to see him a lot this summer and i've hung out with every weekend since the wedding except last weekend. in fact i talked to him tonight for like an hour. lol, how weird. anywho, back at school, got two new roomates. they'll make the year interesting. my sister ( Read more... )

So my birthday was pretty fun. We weren't originally going to go out because Dani had an exam the next morning, but we went to Aaron and Alan's anyway. What was suppose to be just a few people watching the game ended up being a huge party with lots of drinking. I played my first game of beer pong and lost :( and I walked around meijer at 1 in the ( Read more... )

Today i am 21! but more importantly it's my birthday!! Thank you to those that wished me one already...and to those of you that didn't mefjivdfnfei that's what i have to say about that! lol just kidding. bye

What the hell is stupid chicken? where did u come up with a name like that. and candlesparkles sounds like a pyromaniac. crazy people. also if jimmy cracks corn and nobody cares, why the hell is there a song about it? And why does the cashier always ask if you're all set, would u have just stood in line for ten minutes if you were still looking? ( Read more... )

So my last entry i was incredibly frustrated and upset with a certain guy who seems to be the center of almost all the drama in my life. Well since then i have talked to him and i feel better about it. i won't bore u with the details. have u ever thrown a rock off a cliff and watched it rapidly descend until it hits the bottom with a sickening ( Read more... )

ok so sorry i spelled pinochio wrong but u know who i mean, the wooden puppet who's nose grows when he lies and then he becomes a real boy. anyway it's suppose to mean that i'm a puppet. so i'm sure ur all sick of hearing me complain about josh but here i go again so deal with it. So i'm talking to him tonight (online) and i was in a super good ( Read more... )

It is a beautiful day outside today and I am lovin it! Yesterday sucked, i had the flu and actually ended up driving the hour home just to be with my mommy who always makes me feel better when i'm sick. so I stayed the night in mt. P and came back to sagnasty this morning to fail my history exam. BUT...The sun is out and the temperature is warm and ( Read more... )