A funny thing just happened now...Being the idiot I am...I forgot a bag full of stuff from a Fantasia party upstairs in the computer room...no I wasn't doing anything dirty in the computer room, I was simply packing it around the house on my way to bring it somewhere and then proceeded to forget it there. Of course my mother had to find it! So of ( Read more... )

I've been dumped or maybe it was more like he suggested his fear of becoming involved and I said well end it, I'm not screwing around. Like he was too chicken to actually say it. He even pulled that..."it's not you, it's me" line...we all know what that means...it's me

I no longer have to worry about a zombie apocolypse...I'm the start of it. That's right, I've become a zombie. A non feeling, dead, walking piece of flesh.

I'm back from Vancouver...The whole thing was basically just stressful...I didn't even want to be there. Now that I'm back I'm not exactly happy to be back. I don't know how I'm going to manage living with my family again. They are driving me insane. Philip just never stops criticizing me. It's constant nagging about how much stuff I have, about ( Read more... )

I didn't sleep well last night...The whole night I just came in and out of sleep. Everytime I woke up a feeling of complete numbness came over me and it sort of felt like I was just shutting down. Driving is most certainly not helping either. I mostly just stared at the road ahead and drove, not thinking much about where I was going until I just ( Read more... )

I registered for classes today...It went well I suppose and now I don't have to worry about it anymore. It has been eating away at me for weeks and weeks now and for some reason unknown to me I've just been extremely unwilling to deal with it ( Read more... )

I figure I should update this thing and at least make one of the posts public. The last two have been private...mostly because I think I'm afraid of my own feelings that came out in them. The thought of anyone reading that deep into my thoughts and feelings frightens me ( Read more... )

Just thinking about life and goals and whatnot...I think that ever since I was quite young, maybe 12 or 13 it has been my goal to go to UBC. For some reason UBC was that ultimate goal that was seemingly unattainable. When I applied to UBC I truly wasn't expecting to get in, so when I got my first letter of rejection I honestly wasn't too surprised ( Read more... )

Today a question was asked of me..."Why are boys so confusing ( Read more... )

I absolutely hate being so far from a situation that I have absolutely no control over it. I hate being here when I want to be there. I hate wanting to do something and not being able to because I'm 790 fucking kilometers away. It frustrates me and I'm unbelievably angry about it. I feel like every chance I have is being torn from my hands and I ( Read more... )