Sometimes you look past the events and people that changed your life. You make decisions that have no concern with benefit. There are factors that seem to smile right in your face but that smile is completely fabricated. It hurts to forget where your heart needs to be. Where is that? I couldn't answer that simply, but in my words I suppose I might ( Read more... )

A whopping 158lbs. Lowest I've been in 8 years. Sickening isn't it? That's okay, I feel absolutely unstoppable... that's what counts, right? Just wrote a riff that I didn't think I had in me. Words flowing like rain in a gutter on the steepest hill in town. SO much to say, only so many notes... I gots it.

Another night well spent with the beautiful Daniella. God damn she's intelligent. I'm in love.

So tonight was spent drinking wine, listening to music, and playing music to a new friend by the fire. Her name is Daniella, a sweet eastern European girl ripe and beautiful at the age of 25. She's interesting, she speaks fluent English and has a wonderful heart. She loves music and obviously admired my own acoustic set. Her large beautiful green ( Read more... )

Well, my year and a half dance with the black devil has come to its end. I've lost nearly 20 pounds, but gained my appetite for life again. It's been far, far too long. I was following a path that too many before have, and fallen into a pit of tar, almost literally. Luck had it that someone was there to pull me out, and show me where I was going ( Read more... )

"My GOD", Pat Robertson is one big piece of holy shit.

Got out of detox last night... was horrible to be there for so long. I'm moving up to Avon this afternoon. Hope to hear from some of you.

Heroin is best kept unused.

Last night I dreamt of sea turtles of brilliant colors. I swam with them and they would clench onto me as I perservered. Strange but fun. Then I woke up and slept all day. Didn't go to work.... didn't feel the need. That's ok, wouldn't have made shit in tips tonight anyway. Goodnight/morning.

I'm excited... haven't been so in bizizialallillions of months, it seems anyway. I got a bartending job, and got 20 people really drunk tonight during the Broncos' game pushing shots and beer like the crazed, pour-happy drink slinger I've become. I think I'm getting the idea: you start people easy, asking them if they want more, then you start ( Read more... )

Restless endeavors prove wasted and tired ( Read more... )