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[dissociating]

Sometimes I wonder if I pretend to be alright rather than actually be alright. I don't really have another option, however. I'd probably go insane if I thought about the sad reality of things. And I can't mope 24/7 effectively with obligations (nor do I want to). I know a lot of people pretend and it's probably for the best in my situation.

Comments

[maverick_zero]

Yes, sometimes it is easier to pretend, but what you need to watch out for is when all that pretending lets the problems build up and eat away at you. That's happened to me a few times, and it's not pretty when those problems find a way to get out. Just keep going though, life's worth it, and there are people who really do care out there (yes, I know, cliche sentiment, but it's true).

[bloodied_eden]

I know this isn't really reassuring, but it really will be painful for awhile. But then you'll find yourself healing and one day it'll be fine. And you'll be a stronger person for it.

So long as you're alive there's hope, and there are also opportunities for happiness--they may not be grand adventures, but they're there if you take advantage of them. But you seem to be doing well with that anyway.

But like maverick_zero said, there are people who do care :3 (Actually I'll second everything they said)