Comments | dissolving: push them down-- those feelings-- suck them down. in silence.

dissolving

push them down-- those feelings-- suck them down. in silence.

Aug 08, 2003 21:42

today i feel fat and worthless and silenced ( Read more... )

Comments 7

trailofred August 8 2003, 21:51:16 UTC

Wow, you must be really affected by whatever went on. Being affected in such a way is still passion though, and at least you possess it. If you can be touched so deeply by the lows than it must be great to be spinning on your highs.

Just a thought.

Amber

dissolving August 9 2003, 11:43:49 UTC

so true so true. passion is not something i lack.

hey there.. flavoredcat August 9 2003, 08:08:10 UTC

i dont know what to say katie... except that ive had alot of the same thoughts recently... i miss you so much. yesterday i watched this horrible movie about people like fucking up their lives on meth and it just got me thinking alot... add to the fact that that day i was feeling soooo sick from a ridiculous amount and a ridiculous combination of pills and pot and caffeine and just wanted to die... school is starting soon, and i cant function like this and take 20 credits and manage my life... something has to change... i called yesterday, i wanted to tell you im in room 409 and wanted to know where you were... we can help decorate eachothers rooms.. i am bringing my bean bag chair... we can paint sometimes too... and talk theory.. i miss your writing.. i miss your story, your struggle, and how much strength it gave me.. i miss it all.. i dont think i ever told you how much i adore you, admire you, and hold you dear.. just hang in there and soon we can water flowers and find comfort and strength together... love you..

Re: hey there.. dissolving August 9 2003, 11:44:46 UTC

murr... miss you too. i am living in 416 hill i think i think. there is much fun to be had. thanks for the encouragement/love
love, kt

tigresslit August 9 2003, 08:08:50 UTC

i am sorry i was irritated last night it is because i miss you so much...and i felt like you did not want to see me.

dissolving August 9 2003, 11:36:15 UTC

nik,

don't be sorry-- i was disappointed too-- if i didn't show my disappointment it was only because i was so frustrated with other things. my boss was being a bitch and i didn't anticipate working as late as i did. i have the day off tuesday if you are free. if not i could come out there when i get out of work tonight but it might be late. i will call you. i love you and miss you too, kt

gaspingforair August 11 2003, 08:38:17 UTC

oh, kt... I don't like to read sad entries... especially from you!!! Whoever makes you sad-- get rid of them. You are to special to be hurt like this!!