Sometimes I want to beat you until you stop moving.

Christmas alone this year. But I've been through worse. It turns out that at some point I hit rock bottom, climbed out of the hole, found a rock drill, and kept digging until I hit steel bottom. Then I refined the ore, learned to smith, and made armor out of the steel. now I walk around like i own the place. Until I hit magma bottom, and then I'll ( Read more... )

Matt and I went to our new space this morning and added some homey touchs, such as rugs, floor lamps, a mini-fridge, ect...
I'm pretty sure that I've found my paradise.
Tommorow we move our gear in, set up, and show the world what we're made of.
I haven't felt this unstoppable in years.

we'll be moving into our beautiful new practice space before the end of the week. I'm more excited than I have been in a year. We'll be recording a demo version of our record for promotional use, and by this time next year, who knows? Maybe we'll be on century media! Metal Blade! Or Atlantic....cough cough. But The OW is on the up and up folks.Make ( Read more... )

My life is now a crazy two-wheels-on-the-ground ride, a blur of days melting into nights, alchohol and billiards and music and progress, women and inner conflict, shame and indignation, self doubt and self assurance and hunger and lust, battles against memories and over-due library books ( Read more... )

went to SoPo last night for jess browns birthday. It was actually a lot of fun. and man, it was so fantastic to see her again. she gave me probably the best hug of my life. Played a bunch of pool, and I think we ended up tying. Not much to write. Still just taking it a day at a time. Rock on.

I need a vacation, or rest of some kind. I think the word I'm searching for is solace.

Saying hello to the first morning in more than two weeks that followed a full nights sleep. First night I slept in my own bed. This time I want to heal. This time I'm not hanging on to something that's not going to be. This time I won't be naive ( Read more... )

These days are getting a little easier...or maybe I'm getting stronger. I still lament for what we had, because while we had it, it was amazing. I'm not the broken-down boy I used to be. I've been making resolutions, and I actually intend to keep one or two of them. No more compromises, no more bending over backwards putting someone else before ( Read more... )

i can't believe how badly I miss you...I have to write this like I'm talking to you, because you aren't talking to me ( Read more... )