ST. IDES HEAVEN

Apr 21, 2008 06:22

I am feeling haunted...don't leave me alone with my brain...

Bad things happen. I need help. 

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hidden_vagenda April 27 2008, 14:54:24 UTC
i know its a bit late,but are you okay?

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distilla_junky April 27 2008, 22:39:50 UTC
yeah, i just get like that...sometimes, often. It's what happens when i just run away from my problems instead of dealing with them...it makes me crazy.
I just really hate that i'm still married to a person who fucked my life up completly and i hate them eternally for it. instead of dealing with it i pretend it isn't there...i have the divorce papers but we arn't talking right now, so it's hard to get it done, when we're too busy hating eachother.
Thank you for checkin' on me though ;)

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hidden_vagenda April 28 2008, 11:49:32 UTC
wow that really sucks, how long have you been married? i know we haven't talked in a million years, but now that my computer is working we can :D are you feeling any better?

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distilla_junky April 29 2008, 03:47:53 UTC
I was with him for 3 1/2 years, married for 6 months, before he left me. We're still married because...i've found it's easier to get married than it is to get a divorce i suppose. I'm happy now that i'm not in the same town with him, with my mistakes and regrets staring me in the face, but like i said, i'm good at running away from problems instead of fixing them or hitting them head on. We've been split since December 2006...it's just something that i'm going to have to live with the rest of my life, he really messed me up in the head, i guess i'm still just coping with the repercussions from that whole relationship. I'm just glad i'm smarter now. Thank you. <3
P.S. It's a really, really long story, as you would probably guess. Alot of things have happened since then to make me think this person is stealing my air. I really am a pleasent and happy person most of the time though. I'm just trying.

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vallohavok May 7 2008, 22:25:42 UTC
Hey..I know that things are still on shaky ground with us, but if you need any help with your divorce let me know...I will help you with whatever you need, if you want me to talk to Dan or I could see what days work for the both of you and give him or you a ride up here or down there to help you get things signed...I know he wants to get it over with too..Just let me know sugar...T

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distilla_junky May 8 2008, 00:38:41 UTC
I don't want anyone talking to him for me or about me or anything about my life, it just seems to fuck things up worse between the two of us...when it's time, i'm going to have a mutual friend to mediate and be there through the process of finishing the paperwork. I still don't have any money to get it done so the only reason i feel like i'm in a hurry is so i feel more relaxed but i know i shouldn't "rush it". I talked to jimmy today and he said it's best if i wait til i know i can handle it because being around him now would just be poisonous and draining...he coined the phrase "being very dan right now" which i thought was ammusing. I know you're tight with him now, so i don't feel like involving you in this mess anymore...i'll get it sorted out, but thank you :)

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