I'm finally moving to Portland. A long delayed trip wrought with side stops for family and financial inability, but it's here. As excited as I am I have to admit I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. The city itself is not much different from the Dallas/Fort Worth Metroplex, consisting of several different sections and smaller "inner cities" but it's a ( Read more... )

"It's twelve days now that I've been locked inside my office. Holed up behind the mahogany landscape that is my desk, the light barely slipping through the pulled blinds and the complacent silver file holders adjacent to the door. Twelve days of pondering and confiding with the walls. Morose and and unsettled as I am, it's so ironic that I would ( Read more... )

It's literally been over a month here in Texas and I'm overly motivated to get out of here. Now don't get me wrong, residing at my parents house is fun and all and I've really taken advantage of this opportunity to connect with my siblings and in alot of ways sort out the direction I want my life to go from this point and what I can probably let go ( Read more... )

So I'm back in Texas at the Madre's place of residence. The family at this point is basically at eachother's throats. I'm amazed what a balancing act these relationships had been in until the sudden uprooting of different family members and the aftermath. My sister had a kid and decided to move in with her boyfrind/fiancee-ish thing. This coupled ( Read more... )

Straggling into this conversation I am having with myself and the rest of the internet, I'm filled with several mixed thoughts ( Read more... )

I've lied awake too many nights feeling this shit. Reflecting on all the directions and implications I want my life to exhuberate. Disevowing myself from some zealous beliefs and listening focusing with all my energy to maintain a healthy perspective. Not too firm and not to fooliosh. keeping my head in the clouds enough to stay dreaming but my ( Read more... )

This Last month has been insane. Transit between New Orleans and Ft. Worth has been really the only time I had to review all of it. it was funny too, I thought I'd have to fight Tony to drive but he was so exhausted from unknown reasons that he'd tell none of us, and he begged me to drive.

Looking back on everything that's happened thus far i ( Read more... )

Welp, it's been about six months since my last entry.I'm kinda glad I waited so long. Lifes been pretty good to me through all the twist and turns since December. I gotkicked out of my house for the constant lack of my being there. I was caught up in some fun messes, I think it'd be best just to reflect now.  About a week and a half after my last ( Read more... )

The last sixth months have been full of intense change ..almost unbearably so.

So It started with the most retarded of all things; me moving to Texas. I hate Texas. I hate everything about it. 
There are only two seasons here, the Summer and the Spring.
It doesn't: 
rain.
snow. 
get cold.
get warm.

It only gets so hot that you spend most of your days ( Read more... )

.. Sometimes we get so full of ourselves...and by that I mean me ( Read more... )