I lie awake at night ( Read more... )

So lets see on the way to have lunch with him I realzied that my car had a flat..(How wonderful considering that I am about to trade it in soon). My dad and I had to go buy a tire for it...That took a good ol 30 mins......Then on top of that my car is not ready yet and my mom does not want me getting a new car at all........So yeah her and I are ( Read more... )

Well I am about to go have lunch with him now....I am sorry I keep writing, but I really just feel like I can vent about everything here, and it is not because its a livejournal it is mainly because it is easier for me to write on my livejournal and no one really reads this anymore so I feel like I am allowed to say more of how I feel. Anyways but ( Read more... )

Why is this is fucking hard....I feel as if I just lost everything I had going in my life.....I would do anything just to take back time and let him know how much he means to me and that I would never do anything purposely to upset him in any way. I just feel so fucking empty inside as if I can not really explain it very well this feeling....I ( Read more... )

Well this is my first hour of being alone....and I fucking hate it...this next month I am going to have a whole lot of entries and they may not be the most happiest things you have ever read, but I need to find a place I can go to and just vent about how empty I feel..Since I love him so much I am so willing to just wait a month so I can be with ( Read more... )

Hey everyone guess who is back ( Read more... )

I think I have had my fun with livejournal.... I am not going to update very much anymore I dont think....

Ok there are a few things I would like to address in this update other then the fact I have not updated in god knows how long seems like forever and it has been but I am going to get better at updating this ( Read more... )

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I'm tired of being what you want me to be ( Read more... )