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everything in life is headed in what seems to be a good direction. i've smiled more in the past two months that i have in the 10 months before that combined. all of the pieces just seem to be falling into place.
so at what point do i stop feeling like something is still missing?
i guess the only disadvantage to having someone/something that you can't get enough of is that you're never truly satisfied with what you do get. oo that was deep... like some kind of ocean.
or maybe it's that the pieces just aren't falling fast enough. it's like the first couple of levels in tetris; there's no challenge because things are just moving too slow. i want to be on level 47. i want to skip ahead a few years. right past all of the stupid college stuff. i don't need to go through 4 years of experimenting and growing up. i already know that getting drunk and doing a few illegal substances is stupid. i already know that there will always be dumb people whereever i go.
so since i'm past all of that, i'm ready to do something with my life. i want to go ahead and share a house in a quiet neighborhood with someone. with two cars in the driveway and a boat to occasionally relax on the lake in. impatience sucks.
this entry has already skipped all around, i might as well share the rest of the stuff on my mind.
in a few short weeks, i'll be losing contact with quite a few of you. so i guess this is as good of an opportunity as any to share my after-graduation plans with you, since they've changed twenty times in the past few months. i'll be taking at least a year off from being a full-time student. my summer will be my first full-time job experience. i'm going in on my grandfather's lawncare business as a possible successor. if nothing else, it'll be to make alittle extra money on the side. i'll still be working in the mornings at UPS, and occasionally attending one or two courses at UNCG, just to stay in the habit of learning. chances are that i'll be moving into my own place by some point within the next year. as for where, i don't know. there are times when i have to wonder if i'd like to just move away and start over in a new city. regardless, i don't want to disappear from everyone's lives. frankly, there are some people that i wouldn't mind forgetting or them forgetting me. but for the most part, that isn't the case.
anyways, before everyone starts getting busier with the end of school coming up and all, i'd like to form a list of home/dorm/email addresses to occasionally send a letter to update folks on what's going on. if you aren't ever going to care about what happens to me, that's fantastic. and if no one says they want me to keep up with them, that's fine too. i just don't want to forget anyone that doesn't want to be forgotten.
sorry about all of the random things throughout this entry. it's been a jumbled, confusing past few weeks.
i figured i'd link it so no one would have much of an excuse to complain. that's not to say that one of you won't be able to find one... but go figure.