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Umm so, yeah! Maybe it’s just a phase but, I’m kinda not liking this school so much anymore.
Yeah the Chicago-ness has REALLY worn off! There is the wonder that is Mark Crayton & friends (tm.) but that’s about it! These feeling could also occur because Yeye is leaving me and …. Yeah . She’s been having a lot of revelations about the people in our dorm, the back-stabbing, fucked-upness that is CCPA, and yeah just life in this part of the world in general.
I’m having trouble taking a breath without having to INSANELY burst into heavy prayer. I’ve almost started to pray as much as I did in Jr. High ( and that was about 10-12 times a day… PLUS SOME!) This world is just crazy, I can’t even turn on the news. COME ON, for entertainment, I don’t go to the movies, I go to my blockbuster online account and rent Thundercats! YEAH I TOTALLY DID IT! I don’t even want to go outside.
Case in point: went to Starbucks ( yeah I know, I live in Chicago, if I had a better option I would take it!) How come there was a man just having a casual conversation about how he felt he needed to beat/ kill homosexuals to show them their place in the world!?!? He THEN went on to say that his brother recently slit a homosexual man’s throat FOR NO REASON! Needless to say, I just left … just… left. It was like , “ Yeye… I …. Gotta … go? Yeah I just need to leave fo I hafta REALLY kill somebody!”
There is just a lot of ignorance out there. I’m trying to fix my ignorance level and REALLY learn and understand others. I think that’s gonna be my next new years resolution ( because I’ve almost completed this years… and I’m proud!) I’m also gonna ATTEMPT ( no promises here!) to stop gossiping so much. It’s really not cool! I should stop lusting too…. But that’s a TOTALLY different issue!
Yeah two guys: One I REALLY like,( sort of?) and the other that I THINK likes me but yeah , I don’t know? So basically the one I like I’ve come to several conclusions about.
- He doesn’t know who I am
- He knows who I am and… yeah?
- He’s real bajiggity ( yeah I stole that from Yeye) and is not interested / I’m not his type
- yeah… whatever, I’m just done with that one! ( and by that I mean this list can go on for days!)
And then there’s the other one that’s 26 and yeah … that’s just weird! So, I’m hoping that he’s just being friendly and not like, “ I WANNA HOP YOUR BONES!” cause yeah… NO!
EVERYBODY is hooking up as of late, I’ve got my real good girl friend Pam with this guy that for her sake I’m gonna “keep a secret” ( yeah there went that gossiping thing) … P.S. PAM EVERYBODY KNOWS!!! Then Kristina has been with Ben for what feels like centuries so … that DOESN’T COUNT. MY IN THE CLOSET ROOMMATE (not so much in the closet anymore especially since he referred to his group of MALE friends as “ the ladies” ) Is dating this guy…but if you asked him I PROMISE he would be like, “ well…. Not really… ummm… were KINDA?…. Uhh…” ( this is normally the point where I say , “He’s your boyfriend!” END OF STORY!) So yeah … that’s that.
The real reason I told that ridiculousness in the last paragraph is because I’m tired of being in rooms FULL of couples… cause that my life right now… I’m the black/single/gay/ comic relief/ minority of LIFE! Why haven’t I talk to Jenn in like CENTURY! ( that’s another story ENTIRELY!)
I’m tired of writing, GOTTA GO!
All in all weirdness and total trifling behavior ensues! So, I’m just gonna leave it at that.
PL&HS
_J