I wonder what happened. what all of a sudden brought up the change. I mean I'm exhausted and sick. but I'm happy. something I haven't been really been used to lately. but it struck me today that I will never be happy if I sit back and just let myself be miserable. It isn't fair to myself. I tend to sit and wonder why I think everything goes wrong ( Read more... )

I am so lost right now. I hate it. like I know I love him, but I don't love him. you know? He rips me apart inside because I know that he doesn't feel the same as I feel but I guess I'll have to get over that real quick ay? I dunno I guess I wish that I could just immediately stop loving him and move on with the snap of a finger. But, it looks as ( Read more... )

Wow its been a hell of a long time since I wrote in here. and let me tell you its been a hell of a week. starting on Saturday when I broke my gal dern finger.. ugh.. THAT RUINED ME WEEKEND. then I went and saw my cousins before they left for Ireland and New Hampshire. It was fun even though I was in a temp cast and in tears most of the night. (The ( Read more... )

Tonight was so much fun ( Read more... )

I told a specific someone how I felt about them. I told him I love him. the first guy I've actually said it to, not about but to. Now I think he is just seriously playing with my feelings and head. He knows I fall for things easily, but I don't know. Oh well, only time will tell.
This weekend I have a tournament and tomorrow is our first game! <-- ( Read more... )

Last night was rather scary for me. I haven't cried that hard in a long time, or for that long. Lately it seems as if the world is shining on everyone else but me. My parents and I seem to be fighting a lot more. they are threatening to kick me out. I mean throw me out on the streets. what the hell? ugh whatever kick me out I'll be fine without you ( Read more... )

I'll tell you about a story tomorrow. but for now. I am shaking and crying to hard to even type, I'm surprised I've made it this far...

Snider the great: suuuure ( Read more... )

starrainbow29: I dunno.. last time I have to admit when you told me you love me I didn't believe it mostly because I didn't want to believe it because I didn't think anyone could love me. I mean you read my livejournal you know how I really felt the rest of the summer. and this time I believe you and I love you too ( Read more... )

Dreams are mysterious things that may or may not happen. Well I wished real hard for one dream to come true, and this might be my time ( Read more... )