If I fail any class I fail out of college. I wouldn't bring this up if I wasn't close to failing a class. So, this could be a big fat waste of time. We'll see ( Read more... )

So, I took this test for my Poetry Studies class. It was so horrendous for the entire class that the prof sent us an e-mail ( Read more... )

My insomnia is getting worse. But, that's ok, because at least I make it to class when I'm awake. Does everything register? That's another situation ( Read more... )

I've been fucking mentally bashing myself for no real reason at all. I've been keeping up with the school work, but I haven't been sleeping. I should get the fuck to sleep now, but I can't. I just can't. I'm pissing money away everyday that I'm without a job. I've applied, but I haven't heard shit from anyone. Today is the longest day of ( Read more... )

I'm back in college. It blows, but I don't know what else to do. I'm 24. What else could I do? Since I've been back in college, I've fallen back into certain ruts. Like smoking a lot more than usual, drinking a lot more than I did, and letting my insomnia rule my life again. But, I stay awake in order to make it to the class. I'm lonely in ( Read more... )

Here's why trying to go back to school sucks ( Read more... )

It's been brutally hot here. I'm not a big fan of heat and summer and sweating when I do anything. I haven't really been looking for a job much, the heat doesn't do much for my want to get out there and run around looking form place to place. But, excuses excuses. I've been doing a lot with music lately. Finding shit out for my old bassist's ( Read more... )

It's very ironic to be looking up ways to lose weight and/or exercise regiments while eating a plate of mini burgers. I'm just glad that I didn't eat all the onion rings. Yes, somewhere between grabbing another ring and dipping it into the honey mustard and scarfing down the burger with BBQ sauce, I felt like shit and wanted to go back in time ( Read more... )

"I could never sleep with him. He's got a tattoo."
"It's not just cause he's fat?"
"Well, there's that too."

That's what I just heard from the drunk girls sitting near me in Denny's, as I walked back from the bathroom and sat down.

I need a break. And what's horrible is I haven't been doing anything with myself. I haven't been doing anything that should cause the stress I put myself through. I don't feel alright. I don't know why. I need to finish my application to re-apply to App State. I will need to find a place to live there. I will need to find a job there. I am ( Read more... )