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Rin studies a lot and always gives her best try. Sakura admires her, loves her, and envies her. She would be glad of help her in anything. Because she is so little and clumsy without any talent at all and just stand there like an idiot. No one admires Sakura, no one loves her, or envies her. But sometimes, Rin looks like if she likes a bit Sakura. A bit. Like if she is a pet which is going to end in the streets soon or later, so Rin does’t wants to get very attached. When Sakura asks her for play, Rin always is busy with sorcery.
Even when her Father loves both of them, only Rin is the heir of Tohsaka’s family. At least it’s what Rin has told her before and Sakura WANTS to understand, so she does her best (like Rin, just like Rin, if she is like Rin, maybe everyone is going to look at her in the same special way) for not cry. And Rin is kinda proud of her. Sakura knows because of some strange shine in her eyes when she is looking at her. Sakura wants to make her feel like that once and again. Just because of it, she does exactly what Rin said. Always. Because Rin is intelligent, beautiful and stronger. Someone like her can´t be wrong.
But something usually burns her heart. She is too young for knows it’s hate. For her, it’s a dark butterfly, sleeping softly in her chest, coming with a tongue full of poison to keep her awake when she should rest.
Rin doesn’t need a great effort to make her father looks at her. When he is not busy or traveling in a distant place, he is always with Rin and never with Sakura. Sakura, does she even exist for someone so special like him? No, he probably just see in blank when is passing by her side. Sakura is invisible. Sometimes, she wish doesn´t be here for shame him. But usually, she just wants make something so gorgeous that no one can´t ever forget or ignore.
She knows how to cook in western style (what her father probably loves, or that said the maids to her): Strawberry dessert but only Rin is there to taste it. And Sakura don’t want to show her how she is trying to steal the Father she loves and deserves more than no one. The maids said she is very good at cooking and Sakura is happy, even when is always so sick to even knows if it’s true or they are just lying because is a child yet, and daughter of the Master.
Sakura is happy, even when the dark butterfly told her that this beautiful life it’s not going to be like this forever. And when the maids tell her she must see Rin and not for study nothing at all or take the lunch together, she make her best for not cry and even give her a cute smile.