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I hate days like today. I feel lonely. I feel anxious. It's even worse because I'm already sick to begin with. I miss her. And it's stupid that I miss her bc I have spent an unusual amount of time with her this week and last week. I think that's why I miss her so much, because I got used to seeing her everyday all day. I don't want my dependency to flare it's nasty little head again. I just feel icky still and I just long to snuggle up to her and be close. She calms me and I feel so safe when her arms are wrapped around me. I know that I'm feeling all anxious because I'm on my period and it always makes my hormones all funky. I don't know how to make it go away though. I want her here now. She's been telling me she loves me a lot lately. That makes me so extremely happy. Before, I felt like I was always the one to say it first, because, well I was. But it's different now. We'll be chatting on FB while she's at work and she'll randomly say "I love you baby" which always makes my tummy feel with butterflies bc she's just so damn cute. Or the other day, she was on her way home so we could go to a concert and she said she loved me. I think she's getting more comfortable with the fact that she loves me. I know I am definitely finding it a lot less scary to say. I do love her. I love her more than I ever thought would be possible to love someone. It's insane. That girl she is perfect to me. I will never be able to say how lucky I am that I found her. She's incredible. I feel at home when I'm laying next to her. I just wish she was here right now because I feel sad and really alone...