And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder...
Best description I can give you of my mindset right now:
Half a dozen, 5yo unmedicated ADD kids with bouncy balls...INSIDE MY HEAD.
Fucking hectic.
Jayse.
So I like the kid. We hook up. We have sex. I go to the coast. He leaves town for holidays.
I still like the kid.
NYE I hook up with a random & take him home. We just hook up. A lot.
I wake up & am amused by this.
A day goes by and I feel kinda odd.
Instead of hooking up with a GORGEOUS boy, I walk away.
I wake up the next day and realise...I didn't hook up with him cos I'm still nuts about Jayse. He leaves in like a month. And now I feel weird cos I hooked up with some random that's not Jayse.
And I think I did it to try to get over it.
But it didn't work. And I realised exactly how much I'm crazy for him. And the realisation of exactly how long he's not here for hit home, hard (again).
AND NOW I FEEL SHITTY & NOTHING MAKES SENSE.
Note to self: First incapacitate, then negotiate. DON'T TRY TO SORT THINGS OUT WHEN A NINJA'S PLAYING PINBALL WITH YOUR MIND.
Half a dozen, 5yo unmedicated ADD kids with bouncy balls...INSIDE MY HEAD.
Fucking hectic.
Jayse.
So I like the kid. We hook up. We have sex. I go to the coast. He leaves town for holidays.
I still like the kid.
NYE I hook up with a random & take him home. We just hook up. A lot.
I wake up & am amused by this.
A day goes by and I feel kinda odd.
Instead of hooking up with a GORGEOUS boy, I walk away.
I wake up the next day and realise...I didn't hook up with him cos I'm still nuts about Jayse. He leaves in like a month. And now I feel weird cos I hooked up with some random that's not Jayse.
And I think I did it to try to get over it.
But it didn't work. And I realised exactly how much I'm crazy for him. And the realisation of exactly how long he's not here for hit home, hard (again).
AND NOW I FEEL SHITTY & NOTHING MAKES SENSE.
Note to self: First incapacitate, then negotiate. DON'T TRY TO SORT THINGS OUT WHEN A NINJA'S PLAYING PINBALL WITH YOUR MIND.