When the sun burns out, will any of this matter ( Read more... )

That is the ammount I need to get out of new mexico and to seattle. started my savings fund
two weeks ago, currently at $130. just need to buckle down, buy a lot of ramen, and put whatever
I can into it as often as i can.

i try it fit in. i try to be likeable. i fucking try to be a nice person. fuck it.
even with everything i have tried to do, i still am treated like a outcast. at least now
i look like what i have been treated like.

is not sure which is more annoying. dealing with the pit of vipers I dealt with from 10pm-2am or coming home and having the roommates BF playing system of a down: aerials AT WALL FUCKING SHAKING
VOLUME LEVELS!!!! As if I wasn't annoyed enough by the rest of life. ug.

who would have thunk it?

APC is closed for thanksgiving. That does not mean that we have to stop dancing.
For any of you in ABQ. KgB has moved to Retro's for thanksgiving. Myself and Sparquis
will be your humble djs. $4 Absinthe Shots all night. Various $3 specials as we
call them. Keeping with tradition, time to dance off the turkey!!!

Yet another first this week. as much hell as I have been through...I saw my first snowy sunrise. it was fucking amazing.

with the way the rest of this week has gone, of course fire/safety walks in to do an inspection of the bar tonight

so. after 3 days in a row of crap just absolutely going to shit when i was supposed to get out of work and just go home and kill zombies, my solution is this. now that I am home. I have made myself a meal of velveta bacon shells and cheese, tossed and extra does of bacon bits in it, liberal amounts of black pepper, and a hand diced bit of ( Read more... )

But I think I have decided. Either I move out of this state by my next birthday...or I never
see another birthday. It is time I take the risk of leaving.

Still breathing. Wish I had more to say but over the last 72 hours, I have slept 4,
thrown up for 3, and the dream has come back. Breathing is about all you can expect
from me right now.